dammit!!
so yeah yesterday was my "prom" and i dont think anything could have gone worse. nathan ordered a glass of wine and yeah well hella long story. so then i went to the pool hall and daizy and brendan and kevin picked me up and we went out and like i fucking hate not having anybody to ever go out with....ever. i called lea but she was at queer prom along with everyone else so i was stuck with daizy and her bf makin out n shit. god dammit. i am hanging on to the one good thing that i think i have with all that i have but im not getting held in return. nothing. zip. zilch. notta. ABSI-FUCKIN-LUTELY NOTHING! dammit i hate being alone i hate going to my stupid ass school i hate not being on my own and i hate life currently. whatever...life is a pile of shit. im gonna go to bed because my grandfather decided to take an 800 mile road trip today and i had to drive home from the freaking mountains so ive been behind a wheel for four hours and yeah im going to bed. i truly hope that someone reads this so they know how much i fucking miss them and how much im trying here. g'night