Happy Birthday Lexi..
Today.. 5 years ago I gave birth to the most precious angel. Alexis Jade was brought into this world sleeping.. no mother(or father for that matter) ever wants to hear the words "I'm sorry but your baby is dead". You shouldn't have to bury your kids, they bury us. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her and wish she was here. This birthday is a rough one.. she'd be 5. We'd be getting ready for kindergarten. School clothes shopping, princesses, Hannah Montana and baby dolls. Playing dress up and coloring pictures. Instead.. I've got pictures, an urn and a stuffed animal no one touches. No preparing for kindergarten, no dress up.
It doesn't feel like it's been 5 years.. the pain has changed tho..I grieve every day for the things we can't do together. I ache for those mommy daughter days..I was robbed of it all.
The words just don't seem to want to come today.. I feel..speechless.
Maybe the urge will come later.. right now I just hurt.
It doesn't feel like it's been 5 years.. the pain has changed tho..I grieve every day for the things we can't do together. I ache for those mommy daughter days..I was robbed of it all.
The words just don't seem to want to come today.. I feel..speechless.
Maybe the urge will come later.. right now I just hurt.