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herm last night my boyfriend asked me what was wrong and yeah i couldn't stop crying, i kindda just said to hold on while i cryed and put the phone away from my face ...The thing that made me cry the most was when he guessed why i hated myself the most...I didnt really tell him that what he guessed was the main reason i just kindda stayed quiet, but he probably new:/ and yeah I do hate the way i look the most, it's like BLAH i've hated everything about the way i looked since i was 8years old...I always see all these girls at school, the mall, magazines, tv, just everywhere and i'm just like Why can't i look perfect like them....I hate when my dad says something about the way i dress,act,walk,talk everything, BLAH stupid mother fucker...I see all these other girls and i dont know why the fuck my bf wants to be with someone ugly like me, BLAH and yeah i know looks arn't soo important but i'm no good and BLAH i dont deserve to live.