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That panicked feeling that resides in the back of throats, the base of spines, and the pit of stomachs has set up camp in my body. It is as though my body is aware of the impending doom that is poised to pounce on my exhausted frame if for one minute I allow myself to become waylaid by the future prospect of finishing school. It is at this point where I desperately want to forget about the mountains of responsibility currently at hand through final presentations, projects and papers.
I'm only mildly anxious about going to Zambia. Essentially, its all I think about and it takes up the majority of my conversation. It's much more a matter of me wanting to be done with school and just take off. I've maintained fairly good grades and worked hard thus far, so as terrible as it sounds, I really only feel like doing whats adequate to finish and nothing more. At this point, I don't have anyone i feel like i need to impress.
Everything I'm reading says that there's nothing I can really do to prepare myself for living in Zambia because it is such a different experience. I keep reading anyway because I think its stupid if walk in blind even if a book can't given me any practical application.
List of things that must be done (part 1):
Finish and give senior research presentation
Do group co-facilitation project
Have yard sale
Throw out or give away what I can't sell
Graduate
Pack
Throw a party
Drive back to NY
Buy Ipod, solar charger for Ipod
Buy low-top hiking boots, internal frame backpack, saddlebags for bike
Collect all medical information
Not Flip Out
Fly to DC
Fly to Zambia
throw in a couple goodbyes here and there and thats my next month and a half.
I'm only mildly anxious about going to Zambia. Essentially, its all I think about and it takes up the majority of my conversation. It's much more a matter of me wanting to be done with school and just take off. I've maintained fairly good grades and worked hard thus far, so as terrible as it sounds, I really only feel like doing whats adequate to finish and nothing more. At this point, I don't have anyone i feel like i need to impress.
Everything I'm reading says that there's nothing I can really do to prepare myself for living in Zambia because it is such a different experience. I keep reading anyway because I think its stupid if walk in blind even if a book can't given me any practical application.
List of things that must be done (part 1):
Finish and give senior research presentation
Do group co-facilitation project
Have yard sale
Throw out or give away what I can't sell
Graduate
Pack
Throw a party
Drive back to NY
Buy Ipod, solar charger for Ipod
Buy low-top hiking boots, internal frame backpack, saddlebags for bike
Collect all medical information
Not Flip Out
Fly to DC
Fly to Zambia
throw in a couple goodbyes here and there and thats my next month and a half.