All in a day's work...
I haven't been as good about updating this thing as I should be. The last few days have been interesting. First off, I want to start by saying that Sideways was an incredible movie. The more I think about it, I realize how perfectly it was acted and the film direction was accessible and quirky. It had some extremely hilarious moments but also some really depressing moments. I think the best movies make you want to laugh and cry at the same time (cheesy halmark saying). But yeah, it was much better than the Aviator. I'm not really knocking Martin Scorcese, but to say that it was pushing any boundaries or it was fresh or his best work is a long long shot. The whole movie just felt like the middle of another movie. There was no real build up and no real climax or conclusion. The only character development of Howard Hughes was like "I'm this really eccentric guy with OCD... I'm theatrical gold!" ... however, the woman that played Katherine Hepburn (kate blanchet?) was fricking amazing. Leonardo on the other hand was pretty annoying. Paul Giamatti was fantastic... he seemed like a multi faceted character... a real person.
I went to a master's project presentation the other day... and it honestly didn't seem that hard. It's mostly powerpoint so I could just comment from slide to slide. I'm still really anxious about it, so I made a doctor's appointment and a counselling appointment to talk about if it is normal, and I'd really like to get on a small dose of some anti-anxiety medication just until school is done. I know it is very common to be afraid of public speaking, but I don't think it is very common to have a panic attack and start hyperventilating during the presentation. ugh
Otherwise, things have been weird with Carla lately. I think she knows that I'm trying to distance myself from her. If she asks me about it I'm just going to say, "I'm tired of our relationship being flirty friends... I just want us to act like roommates and that's all." I'm tired of being the guy that gives her so much attention and it goes completely unnoticed. I don't need that shit.
Anyways, I don't have very much work to do this week... but I am feeling productive so I am going to try to find something to do.
I went to a master's project presentation the other day... and it honestly didn't seem that hard. It's mostly powerpoint so I could just comment from slide to slide. I'm still really anxious about it, so I made a doctor's appointment and a counselling appointment to talk about if it is normal, and I'd really like to get on a small dose of some anti-anxiety medication just until school is done. I know it is very common to be afraid of public speaking, but I don't think it is very common to have a panic attack and start hyperventilating during the presentation. ugh
Otherwise, things have been weird with Carla lately. I think she knows that I'm trying to distance myself from her. If she asks me about it I'm just going to say, "I'm tired of our relationship being flirty friends... I just want us to act like roommates and that's all." I'm tired of being the guy that gives her so much attention and it goes completely unnoticed. I don't need that shit.
Anyways, I don't have very much work to do this week... but I am feeling productive so I am going to try to find something to do.