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Sometimes I really feel like my life is just one, big, fractured speed-date, however, instead of sitting down at a table with a girl for a minute talking to them completely aloof and detached, you have a weekend with a girl, put yourself out there, and develop a connection. Then, somehow, it ends, just as fast as that minute conversation. I don't know why, but it does. I'm not talking about hook-ups here, even though in retrospect they seem to share some characteristics; I'm talking about actual weekend relationships.
The past weekend for example, I had a great weekend relationship. The girl was calling me, texting me constantly, coming over to eat, watch movies, hang out, and stay over. We talked for hours, saw the sunrise every morning, fell asleep etc. and ultimately were completely comfortable, together, and almost inseparable for practically 3 days straight. Today is Monday and though I saw her today, there was only a vague, fleeting sign of the weekend relationship we just had. It's a shame too because this weekend relationship I didn't, and don't, want to end.
In any event, these weekend relationships, and there have been quite a few, are always incredibly confusing and emotionally taxing and I'm tired of them. I don't think I can keep doing this, even if it's completely perfect for 3 days and 2 nights. I used to feel like a player (not in the proud way) but the more I look at everything, the more I feel completely played.
The past weekend for example, I had a great weekend relationship. The girl was calling me, texting me constantly, coming over to eat, watch movies, hang out, and stay over. We talked for hours, saw the sunrise every morning, fell asleep etc. and ultimately were completely comfortable, together, and almost inseparable for practically 3 days straight. Today is Monday and though I saw her today, there was only a vague, fleeting sign of the weekend relationship we just had. It's a shame too because this weekend relationship I didn't, and don't, want to end.
In any event, these weekend relationships, and there have been quite a few, are always incredibly confusing and emotionally taxing and I'm tired of them. I don't think I can keep doing this, even if it's completely perfect for 3 days and 2 nights. I used to feel like a player (not in the proud way) but the more I look at everything, the more I feel completely played.