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I don't understand why everything has changed so much since the beginning of the school year. I really miss those days. And things really haven't changed for the better either. I don't know, maybe I'm the one that changed. I miss hanging out with my friends, I miss being able to talk to my sister about things. I hardly talk to any of my friends anymore and it's not fun for me. Maybe they think I've changed and that's why they don't talk to me anymore. I don't like staying home on weekends. I'm 16 years old, I should be out having fun with my friends. It really seems like I'm not wanted anymore. By anyone. I know it's like the same old sob story, but I really do miss, I guess, the "old" me. The one that didn't care about the drama and all she wanted to do was just hang out and eat food and watch movies. The one that rarely stayed home on weekends. The one that felt like she was worth something. I don't know, I really don't like myself right now. I don't like the me that I am. I wish I wasn't so annoying or loud or I don't know. I feel like I can't talk to people because I annoy them, like I can't sit down and have a conversation with someone because I'll go off about something that has to do with me and nothing to do with them and they might see that as me being a stupid or annoying or selfish girl. I just want to feel like I belong again.