pity party for myself
first off, I'm lucky, and I have a fine life, and I should quit complaining.
that being said.....
I sat down today, and I was so tired. Just tired all over. And I couldn't take a nap, I tried, really I did. I'm tired of never being caught up, and always being just a little short. And I'm tired of not being able to sleep. I'm tired of showing up at midnight, and sneaking out at 7am, because I don't want his roomates to know I'm there. Because I don't like anyone to know when I'm there. I'm tired that I'm that girl. But I just end up in the same place always. It's like I woke up and the party was over and I'm sick and I can't find my keys. I'm tired of second fields of study and minors and extracurriculars. I'm very tired of the when/how I will graduate, how I'll get enough credits for the cpa. I'm to tired to even say 'CPA exam' outloud. My feet are tired.
do you ever just sit down and not want to get up. just really, want to sit there for at least several hours and stare at the wall, and not think about anything. I'm so tired of always thinking about something. There's always something that I didn't do, did do, should've done, still have to do. All those things I do that I regret all sneak up on me before I go to sleep, so I can't go to sleep. Things I did years ago, that everyone else forgot.
I'm going to go lay in bed and not sleep
that being said.....
I sat down today, and I was so tired. Just tired all over. And I couldn't take a nap, I tried, really I did. I'm tired of never being caught up, and always being just a little short. And I'm tired of not being able to sleep. I'm tired of showing up at midnight, and sneaking out at 7am, because I don't want his roomates to know I'm there. Because I don't like anyone to know when I'm there. I'm tired that I'm that girl. But I just end up in the same place always. It's like I woke up and the party was over and I'm sick and I can't find my keys. I'm tired of second fields of study and minors and extracurriculars. I'm very tired of the when/how I will graduate, how I'll get enough credits for the cpa. I'm to tired to even say 'CPA exam' outloud. My feet are tired.
do you ever just sit down and not want to get up. just really, want to sit there for at least several hours and stare at the wall, and not think about anything. I'm so tired of always thinking about something. There's always something that I didn't do, did do, should've done, still have to do. All those things I do that I regret all sneak up on me before I go to sleep, so I can't go to sleep. Things I did years ago, that everyone else forgot.
I'm going to go lay in bed and not sleep