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shit i can't even remember wat was going on in my life last time i posted here.
well let's start with the typical updates: i'm in college @ FAU i like it for now. i live in the dorms and i can't stand them so i'll be moving to an apartment once may hits and my lease is up. it sucks that i gotta stick it out til then but meh that's life. i'm seeing someone fantastic. i've liked him for a loooooooooong time and we've been together for about 6 months solid. there was a 3 or 4 month period before that but i wasn't very serious about him and in fact ended it with him to see someone else for about a week. it was stupid and i ended that quickly and realized what an amazing guy i have. umm let's see.... friends seem to come and go like the wind and idk there's not much i can do or say about that. college brings about a huge change and idk. it went from me and my best friend being 5 mins away from each other and spending every waking moment together to me in boca her in davie and boyfriends in ftl. most people would see this as a chance for us to hang out in ftl. but to my dismay my bf doesn't particularly care for my bestie and it puts a strain on me. i love spending time with him but i miss spending time with her. idk. it's complex and it just hurts me. he thinks she's immature which she can be at times and she just doesn't understand that he doesn't wanna hang out with her. i think it hurts her that i'm with him regardless of this. i know i know chicks before dicks. but she's wrapped up in her bf and i don't see her unless she's with him so i mean... idk. it's a tricky situation. halloween night me & the bestie hung out (@ her bfs of course!) and it was fun and then i left to see my bf so i mean i do try to balance but its hard. idk. i hate being 3rd or 5th wheel (my other good friend is dating bestie's bf's neighbor) and my bf doesn't like the lot of them so i hang out with them and i'm odd girl out. i try my best to cope with it but its hard. idk. i know people have it way worse in life and i'm lucky if that's the only thing i really can complain about.
school is much harder then i thought it would be. i'm just not at all motivated to go to class or anything. i just can't seem to get myself to care about it.
i'm working 30+ hours a week which is soo much better then school. honestly i love my job. i'm a secretary for a marina in ftl and it's just an amazing job. i play around on the computer all day and don't really do much. but when i do have work i put my whole being into getting it done. i just love my job.
i miss having my friends 10 feet away and it sucks so bad but i can't do anything about it. that's part of growing up.
my family is all getting along good lately which is fantastic!
i honestly think i'm out of things to write which sucks cuz i forgot how much i like to write in this thing.
alright well i'm out i won't waste anymore space.
i wonder who still uses lj?