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Graduation was a total blur..It took two hours but I felt like the actual time I was there was 2 minutes. Its such a relief to finally be done.
My party was outstanding. I loved everyone who came and the special appearances from long lost friends made my night.
Im realizing that I don't need anyone but myself. And that maybe I should just stop looking for someone or something because once you stop looking, it just falls into your lap.
Telling everyone about Hawaii is making it real. Im really leaving and really getting nervous. However. I can't wait to leave some people behind. Distance will be good for me. Yesterday I was at a bridal shower talking with my married friend, engaged friend, and soon to be engaged friend, telling them about Hawaii, and they kept saying "Im so jealous of your life" which, I thought was really odd...seeing as how I am jealous of their relationships. Perhaps the grass really is greener on the other side. But the more I think about it, the more I ask myself, do I really want to be engaged and/or married at 23? Tied down to one person for 50+ years? OR do I want to live my life and be completely selfish, doing everything and anything I want without anything holding me back? Don't I want to be established and settled and actually figure out who and what it is I really want first?
I'm not sure, but I think I am leaning towards the freedom.
My party was outstanding. I loved everyone who came and the special appearances from long lost friends made my night.
Im realizing that I don't need anyone but myself. And that maybe I should just stop looking for someone or something because once you stop looking, it just falls into your lap.
Telling everyone about Hawaii is making it real. Im really leaving and really getting nervous. However. I can't wait to leave some people behind. Distance will be good for me. Yesterday I was at a bridal shower talking with my married friend, engaged friend, and soon to be engaged friend, telling them about Hawaii, and they kept saying "Im so jealous of your life" which, I thought was really odd...seeing as how I am jealous of their relationships. Perhaps the grass really is greener on the other side. But the more I think about it, the more I ask myself, do I really want to be engaged and/or married at 23? Tied down to one person for 50+ years? OR do I want to live my life and be completely selfish, doing everything and anything I want without anything holding me back? Don't I want to be established and settled and actually figure out who and what it is I really want first?
I'm not sure, but I think I am leaning towards the freedom.