Breakdown *New Juliana/Emily fic*
Title: Breakdown
Author: stamay680
Prompt for: Tears
Rating: R (for mention of rape)
For: occhallenge group
Summary: Juliana needs Emily to let her in so they can begin to heal each other. Emily needs to stay closed off so that she can try to move past what’s happened. Is there a common ground that these two can stand on?
Disclaimer: I do not own Emily Prentiss (delete random sexy thought if I did) or the rest of the Criminal Minds gang…I only take them out of their box sometimes to play with them and make them happier than they are onscreen. However I always put them back…usually in the same general condition as I found them. ;) I do however own Juliana Taylor-Prentiss, She’s mine…all mine!
Authors Note: This story takes place after part of a longer story that’s not completely finished. It’s a promo of sorts for the events that came before.
Breakdown
“Can I take her home?” Juliana asked and Hotch looked at the doctor who nodded.
“Yeah…take her home, Morgan will drive you.” He said and Juliana headed back into the hospital room. She looked at Emily who was laying with her back to her…she seemed so small laying in the ER bed.
“Babe…the doc said that I could take you home…” She said and Emily sat up on the bed and looked over at Juliana.
“You ok?” She asked and Juli looked at her wife after what they had been through it should’ve been her asking Emily.
“I’m fine…I just want to get you home.” She said and Emily nodded.
“What about the twins?” She asked as Juliana packed Em’s belongings.
“J.J. and Will said that they would take them to their house for the night…” She said. They headed out of the room past where Hotch was still talking to the doctor. Garcia rushed out to the pair and threw her arms around Juliana’s neck.
“I’m so glad that you two are alright.” She said and Juli forced a smile. She saw the rest of the team and they seemed almost afraid to approach them…Emily in particular. No doubt they knew what had happened and they wanted to give her as much personal space that she needed. Morgan stepped forward and gently touched Emily’s arm.
“Hey Princess…” He said softly and for the first time that night Emily truly smiled. She gratefully allowed him to give her a solid embrace.
“Thank you for not treating me like a victim…” She whispered into his ear and he nodded into her shoulder.
“You just know that if you two need anything…” He said pulling back. The trip back to the couples home was taken in silence. Juliana let Emily head into their home as she talked to Derek outside.
“You know that you two can have as much time as you need…” He said and Juliana nodded.
“Thanks Derek…” She said and he forced a smile.
“I took it upon myself to make an appointment with psych…you two both need to go.” He said sounding a bit more official than Juliana was ready to hear.
“But we can have light duty till then…” She asked and he shook his head.
“No…eval first, neither of you can come back until you have full evals.” He said and Juliana wanted to protest but Derek held up his hand.
“Go…take care of your girl, we will talk about this later.” He said with a certain finality in his voice. Juliana nodded before turning back to go into her home. She found Emily standing in their kitchen just looking out over their moderate backyard.
“I think that I might take up gardening this spring…” Emily said turning to smile at Juliana. The redhead couldn’t help it as the anger started to seep into her stance.
“Em…we have to talk about this…” She said but Emily shook her head. It was her way…she compartmentalized everything until nothing phased her…including her own rape.
“I cant talk about it…if I talk about it, it brings everything back up makes it feel real.” She confessed. Juliana moved to Emily’s side and reached down and took hold of her wives hand. The last thing that she wanted to do was make Emily relive any of the past three days…but she also knew that she wouldn’t be able to just let it go.
“Lets go get cleaned up…ok?” She asked and after a moment Emily nodded. The brunette couldn’t help stare at her bruises in the mirror of their bathroom, her cheek was badly bruised and her lip had been split. Juliana started the shower, and the two felt the warmth as the bathroom air became thick with steam. Juliana slipped into Emily’s arms and looked into her dark eyes. She could see the unshed tears that threatened to make their appearance.
“Its ok baby…I’m right here…but you have to let me in.” She said but Emily shook her head.
“I just want to forget it…all of it.” She said and for as much as Juliana wished that that was a plausible course of action. Deep down Emily knew that there was no way that Juli was just going to let everything that happened to them go. It wasn’t in her nature…Juliana clung to things, events in her life where Emily filed them away to where they wouldn’t hurt her.
“I’m sorry…” Juliana started and Emily closed her eyes her head felt heavy with everything.
“Don’t be sorry…you couldn’t have done anything differently.” She said honestly and Juliana nodded her head.
“I will never let anyone hurt you again…” She promised, and they both knew that it was an empty promise since neither of them could predict the future and in their line of work…people got hurt. There wasn’t anyone person at the BAU who didn’t have battle scars of the job.
“I’m just sorry that I couldn’t stop him.” She said and Juliana watched as Emily’s bottom lip quivered slightly. She didn’t want to break down…even in front of Juli but as her wife placed her hands on either side of her face she let go and her tears flowed freely. Juliana held tight to Emily’s body allowing her to cry into her shoulder.
“Shhh…I’ve got you…” Juliana said softly holding Emily close.
The End