pity party entry (i'm allowed one every 5 years)
THINGS I'VE DISCOVERED ABOUT MYSELF
- I don't think I'll ever be happy with myself
- I'll never be hot, just always "cute"
- "Cute" doesn't really mean cute, it means I've got a great personality
- I don't even have a great personality
- People only turn their head when I walk by because I tower over them
- None of the things I'm semi-good at I can make a suitable living with
- None of this poor self image is God's fault, and I know that and I want Him to know that I know that
- I think mean things
- I pick on my boyfriend for no good reason
- I can't find my nitch
- No man is ever good enough for me because I'm never good enough for me
- There's always someone better than me at EVERYTHING, and I hate that
- Mediocrity is in my top 5 fears
- I'm disheartened by my performance at school
- I get so unmotivated sometimes
- I miss Jesus
- I gave off the impression to the majority of the 'Macbeth' cast that I was stuck up...I didn't mean to
- Can I just have 20/20 vision, straight teeth, an easier time finding pants, several vats of motivation, an inside look at what I'm really supposed to be doing, true friends who will stick around for the rest of my life and who aren't just in it to prove it's all about them, a peak at the future, an "edit" feature for the past, a better relationship with God, the ability to hold my tongue, a little humility...ok, a lot of humility, and the ability to realize that everything I have mentioned is either trivial or can be fixed with just a little bit of the drive to do so?