Oct 10, 2007 20:41
GEEEEEEEZE.
I'm walking on cloooouds.
What a damn roller coaster I ride!
And he's at the controls.
But geeze, I love it. I'll admit it. Even the bad times aren't so bad when you have suuuch great times.
I want to hold you like that all the time, never let you go.
And I love how you try to be so manly X3 I've seen you hug your guy friends. You are sooo submissive.
Is that what you see in me? I'm the one girl who'll be a "boy" for you? Beyond words, I would love that so much.
Will you be the dear boy who will be my..."girl"? X3 I know you'd never agree if I said it like that...
Well, maybe, actually. You might.
Other girls might hug you...but none of theirs are like mine. I'm like...poison. An addictive poison.
My God, I'm a drug.
And when I ruffle your hair, and pay that bit of attention to you...why do you get that sad face? I want to always be the one to make it go away.
You're so amazing X3 And I couldn't tell you enough.
I guess I can see why you wouldn't say anything to me. You don't have to. You already have every little inch of me. It's all yours.
It's probably stupid and illogical for me to do it...but oh well! It's freaking...REFRESHING to do it.
I need to be completely illogical some times...and you let me do it.
I'm listening to the best song and the best boys...and every song and every sound reminds me of you. And me.
And...us.
I love how we became friends with out anyone else's help...and it turns out we have soooo many mutual friends. How did that even happen? I really can't remember. But damn...I'm so glad it happened.
Even if I have to wait until the end of this year...I WILL tell you...I'll tell you how I feel. It's freak you out...possibly, though I'd hope you'd be able to guess it a little.
But...I dunno. Your face today made me think. What was that face for? Wanting affection in general? Wishing I was...her...? Or...wanting me?
Would you have let me hold you the way I did if you had been wishing for her?
Does she even ever.......hug you? Touch you? Brush your arm in passing?
Man, I wish I knew what was going on with that. Though, I haven't seen her in a while.
Let's hope for the best, ne?
Me and my silly, wonderful, amazing, tingly, worth-while dreams.
Love.
<3