Dumb-ness.
It should never be possible to fall so bad for someone when you know they don't like you back.
It just shouldn't.
Unrequited love is my disease. It pretty much eats me up inside every second of the day.
It's pitiful.
I need to get over him, but I know, deep down, that I reeeeeally don't want to. When he's even just...standing near me, I feel better. But the minute he leaves...or the minute he talks to someone else the way I wish he'd talk to me, my heart just hurts again. I wish there was someone else. I seriously wish that...if he truly isn't interested in me that he'd just find SOMEONE ELSE! Geeze.
I can't even use that excuse!
Also, even thought this really is silly and won't make sense to anyone, I wish he knew that I'd stay up with him all night if he was depressed...or even if he just had a bad day. I'd do anything for him.
And that stupid little "barrier" between us...it's silly! Who cares if I'm artistic and your athletic? I greatly respect his interest in cross country and track. I may not know a lot about it...but man, if it's important to him, I support him 200%. I wish I knew if that was obvious or not.
It probably isn't.
Actually, I wouldn't be surprised if he thought I was a big jerk that didn't care at all.
But it's not true.
I really messed this up for myself.
I really really really did.
My whole...self hurts. Every little inch.
For the dumbest yet best reasons.
I don't want to let you go...
But I wish I knew if you wanted me to...
It just shouldn't.
Unrequited love is my disease. It pretty much eats me up inside every second of the day.
It's pitiful.
I need to get over him, but I know, deep down, that I reeeeeally don't want to. When he's even just...standing near me, I feel better. But the minute he leaves...or the minute he talks to someone else the way I wish he'd talk to me, my heart just hurts again. I wish there was someone else. I seriously wish that...if he truly isn't interested in me that he'd just find SOMEONE ELSE! Geeze.
I can't even use that excuse!
Also, even thought this really is silly and won't make sense to anyone, I wish he knew that I'd stay up with him all night if he was depressed...or even if he just had a bad day. I'd do anything for him.
And that stupid little "barrier" between us...it's silly! Who cares if I'm artistic and your athletic? I greatly respect his interest in cross country and track. I may not know a lot about it...but man, if it's important to him, I support him 200%. I wish I knew if that was obvious or not.
It probably isn't.
Actually, I wouldn't be surprised if he thought I was a big jerk that didn't care at all.
But it's not true.
I really messed this up for myself.
I really really really did.
My whole...self hurts. Every little inch.
For the dumbest yet best reasons.
I don't want to let you go...
But I wish I knew if you wanted me to...