People Look At Me With Lying Eyes
Soo...I guess Matt is pulling some shit again. That's great.
Well...I guess I could clarify who Matt is exactly. Meh.
Basically, we "went out" from about mid 8th grade to mid 9th grade. During that summer, though, be BARELY talked. He had band stuff to do and whatever, but still, he could have easily called. The first time I talked to him during that summer, it was a couple weeks before we started our freshman year of high school. I was SO nervous about it. I thought "Hey, he's my boyfriend, right? I should be able to talk to him about this." Psh. Not really. He basically thought I was completely silly. I dunno...I prolly was, but my high school years have been really all that amazing, so I might have been on to something...
Anyway, I started to hang out with the band kids a bit at the end of the summer and beginning of the school year. It was nice, I guess, since it ment that Matt and I would actually see each other. One night, I very good friend of mine decided to bring her closest friends from band over to a party. At one point, it was basically me, Ang (that very good friend), and these two senior girls who were in band. I guess they just adored young, thin, geeky guys like Matt and thought it would be hilarious to just strip him down right in front of me. I mean, I was pretty p.o.'d with him already since when he finally made it to the party (he was late), he didn't even bother to look for me or anything. He didn't stop them, but I guess I didn't either.
Even after all this crap, the kid still expects me to go to homecoming with him. Regrettingly, I had my first kiss that night. I was embarrassed out of my mind, and I'm pretty sure that he hadn't known before hand that it was my first or anything...I was so mad. He ruined that moment for me. I wanted this whole relationship to end, and then he decides to kiss me? I was like "wtf"ing it for the rest of the night.
I guess I must have some how blocked out how exactly we broke up...'cause I srsly don't remember any details at all. But after words, he became a real fucker. He spread rumours about me being a lesbian (which wasn't so bad really, since he was half right, but the rumours also including another one of my good friends). He also just hated me in general. When ever he saw me, he'd just start verbally attacking me...or run away. Most of the time, he ran actually. Then things died down for a really long time. We got into our sophmore year. I was WAY WAY WAY over him. I had already gotten a new mate, a girlfriend this time (but we REALLY don't need to get into that. Let's just say she was clingy, I wasn't too serious about it, I was jerk, she was mad for a bit, but we SEEM to have made up pretty well now). He started to believe that I dumbed him for her...but it wasn't even CLOSE to being true XD. Time passed...and then me and Matt actually TALKED like normal, civilized human beings. I was actually really happy. I didn't like him being so mad at me for doing something that so obviously needed to be done.
Ha. How silly of me to think possitively.
Well, now I have this guy friend of mine who kinda likes me-ness, but we're just friends XD I guess he was talking to this kid Zeth who's a good friends of Matt (and used to be a friend of mine when Matt and me were together). Zeth asked if Jeff (that guy friend of mine) was talking to other people, and he said yes, one other person. Zeth asked if it was male of female. Jeff said female. Zeth then said (ha ha, he's just SO funny) to tell his (meaning Jeff's) girlfriend hi. Of course Jeff corrected him (and informed me of what happened), and defended our friendship. Zeth...all of sudden...when on this fucking crazy rant about how Jeff has a really bad taste in girlfriends and that asking me out would be the worst desicion he could make. I was like...WTF. Jeff and I didn't really get it at first, but then Zeth was like "Seriously, ask Matt and he'll tell you!" I was split on how I felt about that comment. I was like "Fucking kidding me?? What did I ever do to him??" and "LOLOLOL Matt is a dumb ass rumor-starter-ness." Then Zeth went on about how being with me wouldn't get him into the in crowd. Jeff was like "I don't even care about getting into the in crowd...O.o" and we both agreed that our school actually has multiple "in" crowds. Then Zeth said that if me and Jeff went out, Jeff would be the laughing stock of the school. He thought that this other girl, Sarah, would be better for him 'cause she'd get him into the in crowd. I...was almost stunned XD Me and Sarah are actually...FRIENDS. Not like good friends, but we get along really well, and I think she's a really cool person. We even sit across from each other at lunch and talk all the time O.o
But then...Jeff came up witht his logical theory...He thinks that Zeth might actually really like Matt ...
Oh yeah yaoi XDD
I mean, yes it's Matt...but I could so see Zeth and Matt together...It's so amazing, it just might be true.
Jeff thinks that Zeth is just bringing up all this Matt crap with out Matt's knowlegde or anything. Like he just felt the need to cut me down because I broke his dear Matt's heart.
Psh...I guess all of this shouldn't matter or whatever...but it is kinda bothering me. I don't feel like I'm the laughing stock of the school at all O.o I mean, I have quite a few freinds, and we all get along great. The rest of the school doesn't really treat me any special way, bad or good. I like it like that. I mean, if people who I think are actually friends laugh at me behind my back, that would really bother me...'cause they'd be lying to my face.
Or maybe Zeth's just an ass.
Oh wait, yeah, that's prolly it.