Whuts A Twinkie Like Her Doin With A Ding-Dong Like Me-Day One Of Tragedy
Whuts A Twinkie Like Her Doin With A Ding-Dong Like Me-Day One Of Tragedy
ya i found out that alotta parents read this journal-
thats great and that helps to explain y things r so screwed up---- so to those adults who have nothin better to do then read a 15 year olds LJ i say that u mite be goin into this with a cynical attitude and u dont quite understand the things im sayin- and u dont realize the nature of our generation- but in the words of david shreve- u can either find aprecciation or a realization- so maybe u will appreciate the relationship u have with ur kids or g/f or b/f or friends or whuteva- or u will aprecciate how ur life isnt as bad as u think- or maybe u will realize that u r better than u thought- u will find that u have the power to become who u desire to be- and with desperation and determination and dedication comes domination- so work towards ur goals and u will soon find urself in range of whut u cood have only dreamed of- or maybe u will realize that i dont live a happy go lucky life that many ppl think i have- and im not a complete dumbass that doesnt understand his left from his rite- remember to not judge a book by its cover- and dont judge a book by its first page or the first chapter-
remember
the fool neither forgives nor forgets
the naive forgive and forget
the wise forgive but never forget
but i still think its gay that adults waste there time readin whut i gotta say
but o well
I DONT NO WHO ALL READS THIS CRAP
SO IF U DO PLZ LEAVE A MSSG WITH UR NAME
EVEN IF U DONT LEAVE A FULL COMMENT
SO THAT I WILL HAVE A CLUE OF WHO IS READIN THIS
IF U IZ TOO EMBARASSED TO LEAVE A MSSG THEN IM ME AT timetalknow777
ok so i left alotta things unanswered in my entry from May 31st-
so im gonna tell u about that later in tha entry
so be patient and keep readin-
ya i no its long
MAYNE I GOT BORED AND WROTE A BUNCHA B.S. POEMS-
im not known for bein profane
and i dont usually complain
thats jus who i am
and i dont give a damn
if u gotta problem with that stuff
if u think im too ruff
or if u think im stupid then ur prolly rite
but thats who i am and whut i am is iight
jus wanted to say i is whut i is
so whuteva u do stay outta my biz
dont hate on a brotha cuz hes black on the inside
dont hate on a brotha if he aint always rite
dont be all up in my grill cuz this dont concern u
whuts it gonna take for me to learn u
that i aint who i was this is a different zac
the old one went bye bye and he aint comin back
maybe im changin-maybe its jus a phase
its not like im bad or ive changed my ways
so dont go laughin-actin like u no me
unless u truly iz one of my homies
so im gonna spend a few seconds outta the box
jus so i can tell u love nocks
LOVE KNOCKS-
love will knock on ur door and u welcome it in
then it will knock u out and ur alone agin
itll nock off ur socks
back into their box
dont go play hide and go seek with love when u got it rite here
cuz love wont think twice before leaving u in its own fear
or maybe its pure confusion that blows its top
maybe its too much hate or not enough thought
some day a girl will come in ur life
and u will desire for her to be ur wife
then u know that the love
from above
never was enough
its the best feelin ever aquired
but love is more than jus bein admired
its kinda like when u dont mind bein left behind
its that peculiar thing in the back of ur mind
in its presence it is loving and it in its absence it is hating
but its this thought alone that will always keep u waiting
WELCOME TO MY LIFE-THE LOVE
ALL OF THE ABOVE IS ABOUT ME KIDDOS-ITS PROLLY ABOUT U TOO SO IF U DINT READ IT THEN GO BACK AND TRY AGIN
the last line sed its love alone that will keep u waiting- ya no that is so true-
I Love Jennifer Horn- and i have gotten to see her three times so far this summer and i only really got to spend a few hours with her- ya i no pathetic- but the waiting part- thats about her leavin me-no not breakin up-but she goin outta town and i wont see her agin until august thats a freakin 55 days atleast- - and that makes me very sad- so if i seem really gloomy then dont wonder y-but i dont git mad at her or anything like that-cuz love is a powerful thing-love conquers all-love will keep u waitin(ya i no all this is really sappy but its how i feel rite now) but i ask myself the question in the title of todays LJ and it says "Whuts A Twinkie Like Her Doin With A Ding-Dong Like Me" i no this is prolly sed all the time but i dont understand y she wood ever go for a guy like me- im arrogant- im annoying( i even annoy myself ) im really stupid and im mean(sometimes), im freakin ugly as hell and i got told that from Chris Payne and that means im really ugly if Chris Payne can tell me that( my grandmother even tells me im ugly and shes the biggist christian u will eva meet-her and god is like this *twist fingers-resembling tight*)
i was really mad the other day and for the past 3 weeks i coodnt sleep at all
so monday nite past midnite i called jennifer and left 14 mssgs tellin her exaclty how i felt about her and that i gave up everthing for her and how i dont really feel loved and i was near to tears and now jennifer feels real bad about havin to leave cuz i told her how sad it makes me that we neva spend time together- and she is afraid that i plan on breakin up with her and she has always told me that she does not say the words "i love u" to anyone eva- she wont say it to her mom-grandparents - her favorite brother or any one-but on last nite i went to her house to say goodbye and she told me the words i had never heard her speak- she told me "i love u" and it meant so much to me-- she told me to hang out with my friends agin(i havent been hagin out with my friends lately) and she told me to do my best to be happy Speak when you are angry---and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret======== u see i spoke my mind when i was angry and i do regret it but it made the relationship better
dint u think that i wood cry- on the phone
do u no whut it feels like- bein alone
now ur too far gone
hope is such a waste
every breath i breathe
gives me this burdens bitter taste
ALL AMERICAN REJECTS REALLY HELPS WHEN U GOTTA GIRLFRIEND OUTTA TOWN FOR A LONG TIME
but i understand things a lil better now- when u get deeply involved in a relationship with some1 then u will come to see them as a much more beautiful person than other ppl see them as- u see not only the outside but also the inside-we come to love not by finding the perfect person but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly- saturday nite i went to davids robinsons house for martys birthday party-i was there for a whole 5 hours- i show up and come sit by jennifer of course and i talk to her for a short time and after less then an hour of bein there jennifer jus abruptly gets up and walks out the gate-then walks home- and i thought about the lyrics to the bright eyes song that sed-
"i dont think i ever loved u more, then when u turned away
when u slammed the door, when u stole the car
drove toward Mexico, u wrote bad checks just to fill ur arms
i was young enough I still believed in war
let the poets cry themselves to sleep
all their tearful words turn back into steam
but me im a single cell on this surpents tongue, theres a mighty feild where a garden was
im glad u got away, but im still stuck out here, my shirts still soaking wet from ur brothers tears
i never thought this life was possible, ur the yellow bird ive been waiting for
the end of peralysis, wheres the statue at, now im drunk as hell, on a piano bench,
and when i press the keys it all gets reversed, the sound of lonliness makes me happier"
i quote that song alot but thats cuz it means so much to me and i can relate it to a lot of problems in my life------so after she leaves i feel real lonely(ya i no git over it) so i talk to the other kids for a while but when it starts gittin a lil bit darker i go and git away from every1 else- i went and layed on the trampoline- and i watched the stars- i do this whenever i git the opprotunity to and i dont like san angelo cuz our atmosphere for some reason wont let us see many stars(in houston i cood lay under thousands of stars and see them all very clearly) but while layin there by myself starin at the stars for freakin 2 hours i thought about Jennifer- and it was the closest thing i had to Jennifer bein there with me- and i jus pretended that she was there in my arms watchin the stars with me- it doesnt hurt to dream- so if ur gonna dream, then dream big,
music and Anti-depressants r gonna play a big part in gettin me through these next two months
THURSDAY NITE MADDNESS
- k so on thursday my dad drops me off at david robinsons class and i walk from there to jennifers house and i had discussed this plan with jennifer before all this and not too long before i arrive at her house she calls and tells me to not show up cuz (she isnt aloud to date) her mom is on her way home and cood show up any minute- and im gettin kinda sad cuz that nite mite jus be my last time to see jennifer for this whole summer- (and she left early this mornin) so i walk to her house and tell her to meet me in the alley for a few breif moments and she goes out there and i saw the saddest thing in my life- she walked out to meet me and then in that moment i saw her in my arms crying more than ive ever thought possible(jennifer isnt the crying type, its jus something she neva does) so shes there cryin rite in my arms and she then realizes she has to go back inside cuz her mom is almost home and so she tells me i gotta go and that made me quite sad- so i saw her for 90 seconds if that- jus long enough to say goodbye- when she gits back in august she will have been outta town for more than half of our relationship(shes gone alot)- and ya i did cry during all this- sure its not as real as i think-
ya i no its jus puppy love
but puppy love is real to the puppies
im the puppy this is real to me- so i sit in her alley rite next to her backyard fence to be as close to her as possible and she then calls me around 9:45 tellin me there is a tornado warning and i shood go home- so i start walkin down southwest through all of southland to my house which is maybe 2 miles away- and i really was quite sad and i had alotta time to clear my head- i had a real long moment to really look around me and meditate about the world and life- and what all this is about- i thought about how much saddness i was feelin at that time- and i looked around at the passin cars and the houses i passed and i looked at the nite stars that were in the sky(yes the ones i look at all the time) and i saw myself in the big middle of nothing and i thought- wow i am very small- i really mean nothing- the world is in the middle of no where
so that makes me nothing from no where
im jus ur average kid that seeks a higher understanding of himself and the nature of the world around him- and what keeps the world turnin and whut keeps it all goin- and i thought is it-money(money makes the world go round) no money is the root of all evil and the world was goin on B4 money- is it happiness- no it isnt becuz many live in depression- is it fun- no cuz plenty go without it- is it god- i dont think so cuz plenty of ppl live without god in there life - is it
How come when you are with a guy, he doesn't realize how special he is to you? - i jus read this question on the internet and it sounds like somethin u wood read in a cosmo magazine but ive got the answer to it- if u read the above paragraphs u will have seen the typical behavior of a teenage female and it explains it- if u want us to no that we r important to u then show us- i mean really think bout whut u can do to show this guy that hes special- im not talkin about havin sex or anything promiscuos- im talkin about jus plain old spendin time with him- now guys r really horny ppl but thats not all we r- if this guy isnt a total asshole then jus spendin time with him will mean more then u no- this is how i feel
But once you knew a girl and you named her "Lover"
Danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, she disappeared, you can't remember
Where she said she was going to
But you know that she's gone
Cause she left you a song
That you don't want to sing
as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there's still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That's the only way it can be
as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
And ended up becoming something other
than what I had planned to be
I believe that lovers should be tied together
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
Left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
I believe that lovers should be chained together
Thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
Left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And laid entwined together on a bed of clovers
Left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness
RELIGION CHURCH FAITH AND THE PPL IN IT-
FYI-Joel Perrite is the youth minister at my church
well u prolly cood have guessed there was quite a reaction from my May 31st entry-
reactions-many ppl told me how they felt the exact same way and were treated the same and they jus never had any way of gettin there mssg out or they never really tried to git it out
reactions-so many ppl were very pitiful and came to me with apologetic faces and asked me in the kindest of ways if it was there fault-and the majority of the ppl that asked had no part in the problems
reaction-alotta church kids were very kind to me-and thats great but it aint enough(no i aint gettin greedy) these ppl were only kind to me bcuz i was once there close friend and now i have a voice that i can use to say how i feel-but whut about the ppl who dont have a voice-the ones who aint got many friends-the ones who dont care enough to say how they feel-
i do this for them-these entries i use to speak out is for their benifit-
REACTION FROM JOEL- ok now i no fo sho that joel reads this-either that or some1 updates him on the latest things i wrote in here- cuz u no how i told yall how we used to be real close friends and now all he does is jus avoid me and act like i dont even exist-even when i seek to talk with him- so sunday i went to a church pool party and he purposely walks straight up to me knowing long in advance that he seeks to speak with me- so he sits down next to me and has a nice conversation with me-wasnt at all mean or anything but he acts as if nothin ever happened and im still in his inner circle and all that which sorta was the reaction i expected-so then he asks me who i wanna room with at camp- it was as if we were best friends and he is gonna hook me up- now i did say alotta mean things that i shoodnt have sed but i was really in a bad mood and i was goin through alot and i felt like speakin my mind-so i guess Joel seeks my approval even if it is only so i wont talk bad about him on the internet- but im sure it will happen agin- if not to me then to some1 else and my job is to do everything in my power to prevent that from ever happenin
BOYS RANCH
and im still not too sure bout the whole boys ranch issue- my parents still dont trust me at all but they do seek my approval of them to think they r kool or somethin so they do give me freedom
MY STAND ON THE RANDOM THING FOR TODAY
the problem with the world today is that some ppl think there isnt a problem
some ppl say that the streets are un-safe at nite
but it aint the streets that are un-safe
its the dangerous ppl that r un-safe
all evil needs to triumph is for the good men to do nothing
evil is like weeds
nothing is all they needs
and they will do far more than survive
they will grow and they will thrive
the evil will grow
and more than u no
some ppl will tell u that "money is the root of all evil"-WHUT WE HAVE HERE IS A FAILURE TO COMMUNICATE-the actual quote was "the love of money is the root of all evil"
and i still think that its BS cuz how the hell was money the root of all evil- i mean fo da reals- cuz we had evil long before we had money- so believe me when i say this- jus cuz some "genius" sed somethin one time dont mean its true- if u believe everything u hear then maybe u shoodnt listen-
and yes im gonna make this friends only eventually so tell me if u want on the friends list- and if u want i will even make u a LJ so u can be on my friends list(granted im not gonna make ur LJ look really kool cuz i dont no how to do that and i dont have the time)
o ya and tell me if u read this whole thing cuz i also wanna see who reads the entry and who is jus tryin to claim the title of "First Comment"
THE CRAP THAT EVERYONE REALLY READS THIS JOURNAL FOR-
When people say, "I’m so tired it's not even funny" why would it even be funny in the first place
If Hooters were to become a door-to-door service would they have to change their name to Knockers
If at first you don't succeed; call it version 1.0
If something "goes without saying," why do people still say it?
Why do bullies always ask "what’s your problem" when they're obviously not going to solve it
Hi. I'm foreign. I got Russian hands and Roman fingers.
getting old is inevitable. growing up is optional
Speak when you are angry---and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret
MEANINGFUL CRAP-
The measure of honesty is not how well you hide your secrets, but rather how easily you let them go
if love is blind then how is there love at first site
life is the leading cause of death
mairage is the leading cause of divorce
hook-ups are the leading cuase of break-ups
u may say im a dreamer but im not the only one
Whenever i am sad, i think of the last time i was happy. And that was with you
If love is hiding around every corner, I must be walking in circles
-Stalker-
ya i found out that alotta parents read this journal-
thats great and that helps to explain y things r so screwed up---- so to those adults who have nothin better to do then read a 15 year olds LJ i say that u mite be goin into this with a cynical attitude and u dont quite understand the things im sayin- and u dont realize the nature of our generation- but in the words of david shreve- u can either find aprecciation or a realization- so maybe u will appreciate the relationship u have with ur kids or g/f or b/f or friends or whuteva- or u will aprecciate how ur life isnt as bad as u think- or maybe u will realize that u r better than u thought- u will find that u have the power to become who u desire to be- and with desperation and determination and dedication comes domination- so work towards ur goals and u will soon find urself in range of whut u cood have only dreamed of- or maybe u will realize that i dont live a happy go lucky life that many ppl think i have- and im not a complete dumbass that doesnt understand his left from his rite- remember to not judge a book by its cover- and dont judge a book by its first page or the first chapter-
remember
the fool neither forgives nor forgets
the naive forgive and forget
the wise forgive but never forget
but i still think its gay that adults waste there time readin whut i gotta say
but o well
I DONT NO WHO ALL READS THIS CRAP
SO IF U DO PLZ LEAVE A MSSG WITH UR NAME
EVEN IF U DONT LEAVE A FULL COMMENT
SO THAT I WILL HAVE A CLUE OF WHO IS READIN THIS
IF U IZ TOO EMBARASSED TO LEAVE A MSSG THEN IM ME AT timetalknow777
ok so i left alotta things unanswered in my entry from May 31st-
so im gonna tell u about that later in tha entry
so be patient and keep readin-
ya i no its long
MAYNE I GOT BORED AND WROTE A BUNCHA B.S. POEMS-
im not known for bein profane
and i dont usually complain
thats jus who i am
and i dont give a damn
if u gotta problem with that stuff
if u think im too ruff
or if u think im stupid then ur prolly rite
but thats who i am and whut i am is iight
jus wanted to say i is whut i is
so whuteva u do stay outta my biz
dont hate on a brotha cuz hes black on the inside
dont hate on a brotha if he aint always rite
dont be all up in my grill cuz this dont concern u
whuts it gonna take for me to learn u
that i aint who i was this is a different zac
the old one went bye bye and he aint comin back
maybe im changin-maybe its jus a phase
its not like im bad or ive changed my ways
so dont go laughin-actin like u no me
unless u truly iz one of my homies
so im gonna spend a few seconds outta the box
jus so i can tell u love nocks
LOVE KNOCKS-
love will knock on ur door and u welcome it in
then it will knock u out and ur alone agin
itll nock off ur socks
back into their box
dont go play hide and go seek with love when u got it rite here
cuz love wont think twice before leaving u in its own fear
or maybe its pure confusion that blows its top
maybe its too much hate or not enough thought
some day a girl will come in ur life
and u will desire for her to be ur wife
then u know that the love
from above
never was enough
its the best feelin ever aquired
but love is more than jus bein admired
its kinda like when u dont mind bein left behind
its that peculiar thing in the back of ur mind
in its presence it is loving and it in its absence it is hating
but its this thought alone that will always keep u waiting
WELCOME TO MY LIFE-THE LOVE
ALL OF THE ABOVE IS ABOUT ME KIDDOS-ITS PROLLY ABOUT U TOO SO IF U DINT READ IT THEN GO BACK AND TRY AGIN
the last line sed its love alone that will keep u waiting- ya no that is so true-
I Love Jennifer Horn- and i have gotten to see her three times so far this summer and i only really got to spend a few hours with her- ya i no pathetic- but the waiting part- thats about her leavin me-no not breakin up-but she goin outta town and i wont see her agin until august thats a freakin 55 days atleast- - and that makes me very sad- so if i seem really gloomy then dont wonder y-but i dont git mad at her or anything like that-cuz love is a powerful thing-love conquers all-love will keep u waitin(ya i no all this is really sappy but its how i feel rite now) but i ask myself the question in the title of todays LJ and it says "Whuts A Twinkie Like Her Doin With A Ding-Dong Like Me" i no this is prolly sed all the time but i dont understand y she wood ever go for a guy like me- im arrogant- im annoying( i even annoy myself ) im really stupid and im mean(sometimes), im freakin ugly as hell and i got told that from Chris Payne and that means im really ugly if Chris Payne can tell me that( my grandmother even tells me im ugly and shes the biggist christian u will eva meet-her and god is like this *twist fingers-resembling tight*)
i was really mad the other day and for the past 3 weeks i coodnt sleep at all
so monday nite past midnite i called jennifer and left 14 mssgs tellin her exaclty how i felt about her and that i gave up everthing for her and how i dont really feel loved and i was near to tears and now jennifer feels real bad about havin to leave cuz i told her how sad it makes me that we neva spend time together- and she is afraid that i plan on breakin up with her and she has always told me that she does not say the words "i love u" to anyone eva- she wont say it to her mom-grandparents - her favorite brother or any one-but on last nite i went to her house to say goodbye and she told me the words i had never heard her speak- she told me "i love u" and it meant so much to me-- she told me to hang out with my friends agin(i havent been hagin out with my friends lately) and she told me to do my best to be happy Speak when you are angry---and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret======== u see i spoke my mind when i was angry and i do regret it but it made the relationship better
dint u think that i wood cry- on the phone
do u no whut it feels like- bein alone
now ur too far gone
hope is such a waste
every breath i breathe
gives me this burdens bitter taste
ALL AMERICAN REJECTS REALLY HELPS WHEN U GOTTA GIRLFRIEND OUTTA TOWN FOR A LONG TIME
but i understand things a lil better now- when u get deeply involved in a relationship with some1 then u will come to see them as a much more beautiful person than other ppl see them as- u see not only the outside but also the inside-we come to love not by finding the perfect person but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly- saturday nite i went to davids robinsons house for martys birthday party-i was there for a whole 5 hours- i show up and come sit by jennifer of course and i talk to her for a short time and after less then an hour of bein there jennifer jus abruptly gets up and walks out the gate-then walks home- and i thought about the lyrics to the bright eyes song that sed-
"i dont think i ever loved u more, then when u turned away
when u slammed the door, when u stole the car
drove toward Mexico, u wrote bad checks just to fill ur arms
i was young enough I still believed in war
let the poets cry themselves to sleep
all their tearful words turn back into steam
but me im a single cell on this surpents tongue, theres a mighty feild where a garden was
im glad u got away, but im still stuck out here, my shirts still soaking wet from ur brothers tears
i never thought this life was possible, ur the yellow bird ive been waiting for
the end of peralysis, wheres the statue at, now im drunk as hell, on a piano bench,
and when i press the keys it all gets reversed, the sound of lonliness makes me happier"
i quote that song alot but thats cuz it means so much to me and i can relate it to a lot of problems in my life------so after she leaves i feel real lonely(ya i no git over it) so i talk to the other kids for a while but when it starts gittin a lil bit darker i go and git away from every1 else- i went and layed on the trampoline- and i watched the stars- i do this whenever i git the opprotunity to and i dont like san angelo cuz our atmosphere for some reason wont let us see many stars(in houston i cood lay under thousands of stars and see them all very clearly) but while layin there by myself starin at the stars for freakin 2 hours i thought about Jennifer- and it was the closest thing i had to Jennifer bein there with me- and i jus pretended that she was there in my arms watchin the stars with me- it doesnt hurt to dream- so if ur gonna dream, then dream big,
music and Anti-depressants r gonna play a big part in gettin me through these next two months
THURSDAY NITE MADDNESS
- k so on thursday my dad drops me off at david robinsons class and i walk from there to jennifers house and i had discussed this plan with jennifer before all this and not too long before i arrive at her house she calls and tells me to not show up cuz (she isnt aloud to date) her mom is on her way home and cood show up any minute- and im gettin kinda sad cuz that nite mite jus be my last time to see jennifer for this whole summer- (and she left early this mornin) so i walk to her house and tell her to meet me in the alley for a few breif moments and she goes out there and i saw the saddest thing in my life- she walked out to meet me and then in that moment i saw her in my arms crying more than ive ever thought possible(jennifer isnt the crying type, its jus something she neva does) so shes there cryin rite in my arms and she then realizes she has to go back inside cuz her mom is almost home and so she tells me i gotta go and that made me quite sad- so i saw her for 90 seconds if that- jus long enough to say goodbye- when she gits back in august she will have been outta town for more than half of our relationship(shes gone alot)- and ya i did cry during all this- sure its not as real as i think-
ya i no its jus puppy love
but puppy love is real to the puppies
im the puppy this is real to me- so i sit in her alley rite next to her backyard fence to be as close to her as possible and she then calls me around 9:45 tellin me there is a tornado warning and i shood go home- so i start walkin down southwest through all of southland to my house which is maybe 2 miles away- and i really was quite sad and i had alotta time to clear my head- i had a real long moment to really look around me and meditate about the world and life- and what all this is about- i thought about how much saddness i was feelin at that time- and i looked around at the passin cars and the houses i passed and i looked at the nite stars that were in the sky(yes the ones i look at all the time) and i saw myself in the big middle of nothing and i thought- wow i am very small- i really mean nothing- the world is in the middle of no where
so that makes me nothing from no where
im jus ur average kid that seeks a higher understanding of himself and the nature of the world around him- and what keeps the world turnin and whut keeps it all goin- and i thought is it-money(money makes the world go round) no money is the root of all evil and the world was goin on B4 money- is it happiness- no it isnt becuz many live in depression- is it fun- no cuz plenty go without it- is it god- i dont think so cuz plenty of ppl live without god in there life - is it
How come when you are with a guy, he doesn't realize how special he is to you? - i jus read this question on the internet and it sounds like somethin u wood read in a cosmo magazine but ive got the answer to it- if u read the above paragraphs u will have seen the typical behavior of a teenage female and it explains it- if u want us to no that we r important to u then show us- i mean really think bout whut u can do to show this guy that hes special- im not talkin about havin sex or anything promiscuos- im talkin about jus plain old spendin time with him- now guys r really horny ppl but thats not all we r- if this guy isnt a total asshole then jus spendin time with him will mean more then u no- this is how i feel
But once you knew a girl and you named her "Lover"
Danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, she disappeared, you can't remember
Where she said she was going to
But you know that she's gone
Cause she left you a song
That you don't want to sing
as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there's still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That's the only way it can be
as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
And ended up becoming something other
than what I had planned to be
I believe that lovers should be tied together
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
Left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
I believe that lovers should be chained together
Thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
Left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And laid entwined together on a bed of clovers
Left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness
RELIGION CHURCH FAITH AND THE PPL IN IT-
FYI-Joel Perrite is the youth minister at my church
well u prolly cood have guessed there was quite a reaction from my May 31st entry-
reactions-many ppl told me how they felt the exact same way and were treated the same and they jus never had any way of gettin there mssg out or they never really tried to git it out
reactions-so many ppl were very pitiful and came to me with apologetic faces and asked me in the kindest of ways if it was there fault-and the majority of the ppl that asked had no part in the problems
reaction-alotta church kids were very kind to me-and thats great but it aint enough(no i aint gettin greedy) these ppl were only kind to me bcuz i was once there close friend and now i have a voice that i can use to say how i feel-but whut about the ppl who dont have a voice-the ones who aint got many friends-the ones who dont care enough to say how they feel-
i do this for them-these entries i use to speak out is for their benifit-
REACTION FROM JOEL- ok now i no fo sho that joel reads this-either that or some1 updates him on the latest things i wrote in here- cuz u no how i told yall how we used to be real close friends and now all he does is jus avoid me and act like i dont even exist-even when i seek to talk with him- so sunday i went to a church pool party and he purposely walks straight up to me knowing long in advance that he seeks to speak with me- so he sits down next to me and has a nice conversation with me-wasnt at all mean or anything but he acts as if nothin ever happened and im still in his inner circle and all that which sorta was the reaction i expected-so then he asks me who i wanna room with at camp- it was as if we were best friends and he is gonna hook me up- now i did say alotta mean things that i shoodnt have sed but i was really in a bad mood and i was goin through alot and i felt like speakin my mind-so i guess Joel seeks my approval even if it is only so i wont talk bad about him on the internet- but im sure it will happen agin- if not to me then to some1 else and my job is to do everything in my power to prevent that from ever happenin
BOYS RANCH
and im still not too sure bout the whole boys ranch issue- my parents still dont trust me at all but they do seek my approval of them to think they r kool or somethin so they do give me freedom
MY STAND ON THE RANDOM THING FOR TODAY
the problem with the world today is that some ppl think there isnt a problem
some ppl say that the streets are un-safe at nite
but it aint the streets that are un-safe
its the dangerous ppl that r un-safe
all evil needs to triumph is for the good men to do nothing
evil is like weeds
nothing is all they needs
and they will do far more than survive
they will grow and they will thrive
the evil will grow
and more than u no
some ppl will tell u that "money is the root of all evil"-WHUT WE HAVE HERE IS A FAILURE TO COMMUNICATE-the actual quote was "the love of money is the root of all evil"
and i still think that its BS cuz how the hell was money the root of all evil- i mean fo da reals- cuz we had evil long before we had money- so believe me when i say this- jus cuz some "genius" sed somethin one time dont mean its true- if u believe everything u hear then maybe u shoodnt listen-
and yes im gonna make this friends only eventually so tell me if u want on the friends list- and if u want i will even make u a LJ so u can be on my friends list(granted im not gonna make ur LJ look really kool cuz i dont no how to do that and i dont have the time)
o ya and tell me if u read this whole thing cuz i also wanna see who reads the entry and who is jus tryin to claim the title of "First Comment"
THE CRAP THAT EVERYONE REALLY READS THIS JOURNAL FOR-
When people say, "I’m so tired it's not even funny" why would it even be funny in the first place
If Hooters were to become a door-to-door service would they have to change their name to Knockers
If at first you don't succeed; call it version 1.0
If something "goes without saying," why do people still say it?
Why do bullies always ask "what’s your problem" when they're obviously not going to solve it
Hi. I'm foreign. I got Russian hands and Roman fingers.
getting old is inevitable. growing up is optional
Speak when you are angry---and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret
MEANINGFUL CRAP-
The measure of honesty is not how well you hide your secrets, but rather how easily you let them go
if love is blind then how is there love at first site
life is the leading cause of death
mairage is the leading cause of divorce
hook-ups are the leading cuase of break-ups
u may say im a dreamer but im not the only one
Whenever i am sad, i think of the last time i was happy. And that was with you
If love is hiding around every corner, I must be walking in circles
-Stalker-