no sleepy for baby
i went to bed around 2am, which is early for me, and i slept hard, like deep as i've ever slept in my life! then i woke up...at 2:17am. yeah, so my power nap was a bitch, but oh well, righ tnow i'm watching stomp the yard, and i can't help but wonder what my life would have been like had i given in to peer pressure and had more black friends, and dated black guys. i wonder if i would be happier and a lot of other things. maybe in another lifetime. so yesterday was ansleigh's 8th birthday, and she wanted everyone to eat at e-ka. we went, and as we were being seated, she wanted to sit next to me. me still steaming from the stunt she pulled on valentine's protested to sitting next to her, and moved. i was later informed by her mother, my cousin, that my recent behavior towards her has really hurt her feelings because she is beginnig to believe that i really don't like her anymore. well, for a second i actually had to think if i actually did like ansleigh anymore, sad, yet true. i explained to my cousin that i am a grudge holding fool, and what ansleigh did to me really hurt my feelings, whether she were 7 or not, she did it in lew of me punishing her for a previous act, and she had to learn the consequences of her actions. we decided o end the convo there before things got out of hand, and we went ahead and waited on our cars. in a moment of kindness in her demon heart, ansleigh gave me her doggy bag and told me that she wanted me to have the rest of her food. i'm afraid to eat it, but we'll see how that goes this afternoon. i'm so ready for the weekend, my head is spinning, and i just need some me time. i think i may have a job at fayette county high school lined up for next year, even though i'm not feeling it, but i need health insurance and mula. sleep is coming back, so i'm gonna jump on this freak!