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i keep thinking abotu her. did i do the right thing after i did the wrong one? am i ever going to do that agian? i don't know what to think about anything. i am kinda glad i am going back to california this time. now i can cut off everything and start over. i will try that but i will miss people. even if i don't want to. I have been listening to Juniana theory's song "i didn't mean to..." i can kind of relate. i'm a douche bag. i have changed alot
everything i was i'm not anymore. and i don't think i changed for the better. i think i am becoming more like i didn't ever want to be. i don't even know who i am anymore. i used to have a purpose, and reasons, and convictions. now have school.

i don't know. i should sleep more.