Oct 25, 2004 23:10
man, i hate to regret.
i regret so many things.
i think that is my biggest problem.
and my biggest curse.
i wish i could have been there for becky, when she got her nose pierced, and when she get her hopes up, and when she got her new job, and when she deals with her problem.
i wish i could have been there for sarah, when they did all those tests on her, i wish i could have held her hand when she found out she has siliac disease, i wish i could be waiting for her after she goes in for her biopsy tomarow.
i wish i could be there for rachel for everyday things, she needs hugs sometimes and i want to be the one giving them to her.
i wish i could be there for Noel, when she is lonely at night, when she goes to "our" places and gets sad, i wish i could have been there to be the first person to hug her when she got homecoming princess, i wish i could be the boyfriend she deserves.
iwish i could be therw ith my dad, he has alot of estrogen in that house alone iwht him, and i miss his laugh and his jokes.
i wish i could be there for my mom, she gets stressed out really easy and i know i could help comfort her and keep her going.
i wish i could be ther for my friends, tyson, steph, vanesa, KD, luke, adumb, ben, jase, brennan, jon, walter,brandon, parsons, kayleen, tom, tom, sean, jesse, josh, taylor, jenae, and all the other people i know i am forgetting because i am a terrible friend.
i wish i could have gone to tyson's birthday party, and sang him the song i wrote him for his birthday last year.
i wish i had gotten good grades so i could be at central.
i wish i haden't done what i've done.
i wish i didn't have to do what i have to do.
i wish.