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i am so nervous. i still can't believe i am on the all-state football team. i'm fucking excited. but i also am scared as shit. when i went to the all area team lumcheon, the other d-linemen were 270 and 290. the offensive linemen were 300+, and i am only a wimpy 220 with rocks in my pockets. seriously i am going to get pummelled and beaten and they are gunna chew me up and spit me out. plus i haven't been working out enough and i went running today and i died. fuck. i'm nervous. and scared. and gay.