Struggle for what? Was it worth the price we paid?

[stainedbyhate]

I look at my life
It's not what it used to be
The clouds are gathering in
And shadowing me
I sincerely fear the storm
As I know it will
It will defeat me

And it's coming in
And here comes the rain
It stings my eyes with bitter pain

With ghosts of the past
That won't go away
I feel the strength in me decay

The weakness of man
I'm forced to portray
I feel like I have been betrayed

I'd give my life
And that's no regret to me
If that is the price
For a moment of peace for me
I sincerely fear the dawn
As I know it will
It will deceive me

All of the stupid mistakes
That I've ever made
They break my pride with a brutal rein

With thoughts of the past
That don't seem to fade
I feel the world; a darker shade

The cruelty of life
All beauty is stained
There is no love; there's only pain

I'm tired of being a punchline, or an incident that reminds her of what's important. It'd be nice to be number one for a change. Is it karma? No, I have been fucked over more than I've been a bastard.

I'm just an asshole, regardless. Fuck me.