I watch the phoenix as she glides
so I started my new job last week. It's been alright so far, a lot of stuff to learn, but that'll come to me in time I think. I'm some-what feeling like the old me that I was happy being, but it's in drips and drabs at the moment. Relationship troubles aren't helping at the moment... We're just not vibing at all... Everything is a pre-cursor to another stupid fight... She yells and storms off and I lock myself away and simmer.
But the visions of being something tolerable are enough to give me hope that something, that -anything- is possible. It's nice to have the balls to dare to hope again... A light at the end of what has been a very long tunnel. I've had some bad times this last 6 or so months, so it's good to not feel like such a collosal fuck-up at the moment.
I've still got to cut down drinking and eventually stop smoking too, but one thing at a time... I've not been drinking as much as I used to, so I'm gaining ground there, but unfortunately, I'm still scorching my lungs every now and then.
1 thing at a time.
But the visions of being something tolerable are enough to give me hope that something, that -anything- is possible. It's nice to have the balls to dare to hope again... A light at the end of what has been a very long tunnel. I've had some bad times this last 6 or so months, so it's good to not feel like such a collosal fuck-up at the moment.
I've still got to cut down drinking and eventually stop smoking too, but one thing at a time... I've not been drinking as much as I used to, so I'm gaining ground there, but unfortunately, I'm still scorching my lungs every now and then.
1 thing at a time.