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What do you do when two halves do not make a whole?
the same thing you do when your heart no longer works...you give up.
if life were a movie, and i was the main character, the movie would mostly suck, becasue i wouldnt even be in the picture.
i miss a lot of tings. i miss a lot of times and places and feelings.
and most of all i fear that becasue of who i am, i can never get any of then back...
not even fake, carbon cut outs of happiness i once found.
i just wish once in my life i could ignore what every part of my mind and soul tell me to do and just get over some things.
ive always been the worst at giving up.
And i am almost as bad and making it seem like i care.
Even my grandma once told me at my grandpas funeral "Everyone is allowed to grieve...it allows us to let go. thats why you can never let go of anything...you hold it in, becasue its all you know how to do."
...she always was wise beyond her years.
the same thing you do when your heart no longer works...you give up.
if life were a movie, and i was the main character, the movie would mostly suck, becasue i wouldnt even be in the picture.
i miss a lot of tings. i miss a lot of times and places and feelings.
and most of all i fear that becasue of who i am, i can never get any of then back...
not even fake, carbon cut outs of happiness i once found.
i just wish once in my life i could ignore what every part of my mind and soul tell me to do and just get over some things.
ive always been the worst at giving up.
And i am almost as bad and making it seem like i care.
Even my grandma once told me at my grandpas funeral "Everyone is allowed to grieve...it allows us to let go. thats why you can never let go of anything...you hold it in, becasue its all you know how to do."
...she always was wise beyond her years.