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I'm not gonna lie, today sucked. I feel naked without my car. My dad came to my work to give it back to me then calls me 2 hours later telling me it needs to be fixed again. When I dropped it off at the mechanic place it stalled out when I put it in park. $190 down the drain. So I have $15 to my name untill Friday when I'll get paid but have to give everything to my parents for fronting the money for my car. I wore a wife-beater tank top to school today & got in trouble for it during 2nd lunch. That's such crap people wear those to school & even worse things & they don't get yelled at but I do. Its so dumb. The office tried to make me wear some stupid shirt. I wore it for the last 5 minutes of lunch then took it off after. So yea I was already in a bad mood then I get to work & I'm stupid & I cut my thumb & it stings real bad. It wouldn't be an issue but I'm lame & I suck my thumb & the cut is on that thumb so I can't suck my thumb now. So that means no sleeping for me until the cut is gone. My dad tried laying a guilt trip on me when I got home & I started crying cause I can't deal with things right now.
Plus as usual I want a boy who doesn't want me.
Life sucks sometimes.
But I'm so lucky & so selfish for not thanking God every day for the blessings he has given me. I am truely blessed no matter how badly my day has gone. I'm just so mentally & physically tired its insane. I just need something positive to come along for me & I'll be ok.
Well I'm going to call it a night early.
"Don't waste your lips on words I've heard before
Kiss my tired head
& each letter written wastes your hand
Young man come & lead me to your bed
You gave me hope that I'd not lost him
& then thought it rather strange to see me smiling
As I don't do too much smiling these days
She put on happiness like a loose dress
Over pain I'll never know
'So the peace you had' she said 'I must confess I'm glad to see it go'
We're two white roses lying frozen just outside your door
I've made you so happy & so sad, which should I be more sorry for?
Come kiss my face goodbye
The space below my eye & above my cheek
Because I'm faint & fading fast
I see a darkness & I shall be released
I'll pass like a fever from this body, softly slip into His hands
I tried to love you & I failed
But I have another plan
My Lord how long?
How long to sing this song?
& My Lord, how much more of this pretending to be strong?
When she stands before Your throne
Dressed in beauty not her own
All soft & small you'll hear her call
'You brought me here, now take me home.'"
mewithout You - Silencer
Possibly my favorite song ever.
Plus as usual I want a boy who doesn't want me.
Life sucks sometimes.
But I'm so lucky & so selfish for not thanking God every day for the blessings he has given me. I am truely blessed no matter how badly my day has gone. I'm just so mentally & physically tired its insane. I just need something positive to come along for me & I'll be ok.
Well I'm going to call it a night early.
"Don't waste your lips on words I've heard before
Kiss my tired head
& each letter written wastes your hand
Young man come & lead me to your bed
You gave me hope that I'd not lost him
& then thought it rather strange to see me smiling
As I don't do too much smiling these days
She put on happiness like a loose dress
Over pain I'll never know
'So the peace you had' she said 'I must confess I'm glad to see it go'
We're two white roses lying frozen just outside your door
I've made you so happy & so sad, which should I be more sorry for?
Come kiss my face goodbye
The space below my eye & above my cheek
Because I'm faint & fading fast
I see a darkness & I shall be released
I'll pass like a fever from this body, softly slip into His hands
I tried to love you & I failed
But I have another plan
My Lord how long?
How long to sing this song?
& My Lord, how much more of this pretending to be strong?
When she stands before Your throne
Dressed in beauty not her own
All soft & small you'll hear her call
'You brought me here, now take me home.'"
mewithout You - Silencer
Possibly my favorite song ever.