i'm back
yes, i stopped taking my meds for about a month. yes, this is what happens when i don't take them. no, i don't want to talk about what triggered this on LJ. that would be counterproductive. long story short: i was acutely manic/having a mixed episode which became a mental health crisis. kim says i have been acting strange for weeks, and coupled with when i went off my meds, it made sense.
anyways, so i was thisclose to getting committed yesterday. kim called my shrink and he promptly called the sheriff's dept. that was special. so i'm talking to the deputies and they asked, "you don't have any guns or knives or anything like that, do you?"
my response: "don't you think i would have answered the door with it?"
yeah. dealing with the cops? not so fun. they weren't bad; they didn't take me down or tase me or anything like that. i don't think they knew what to expect...
having said that, my shrink is an asshole. but like my best friend said, "if they were awesome at their jobs, they wouldn't be working at the VA hospital." he asked me what i wanted to do. i told him that i didn't want to be admitted. the next words out of his mouth? they can admit me for a psych evaluation. *headdesk* after a few moments, he decided to "remand" me into kim's "custody". the deal is if i start getting remotely agitated again, i have to go back. no doubt that if that happens, i will be admitted/committed and all. the important thing is the fact that he finally listened to me. the abilify leaves me zonked. so he finally decided to change my med cocktail. he's going to wean me off of the abilify while titrating me up on lamictal. the wellbutrin is back for smoking cessation. of course, there's some kind of hella scary side effect with the lamictal--stevens-johnsons, which is a fatal generalized skin rash. that sounds like fun! seriously though, it's extremely rare. like one out of 10,000 people rare. (lord, i hope i'm not that one...)
so... don't know what i can say other than thank all of you for the well wishes. i'm home and in one piece. no work for a week. i'm going back to school on monday. right now, i just feel kind of blah and i have had a terrible migraine for days. i don't know how long it will take to get stabilized. i don't know when i'll be back to "normal" for me. here's hoping it's soon.
anyways, so i was thisclose to getting committed yesterday. kim called my shrink and he promptly called the sheriff's dept. that was special. so i'm talking to the deputies and they asked, "you don't have any guns or knives or anything like that, do you?"
my response: "don't you think i would have answered the door with it?"
yeah. dealing with the cops? not so fun. they weren't bad; they didn't take me down or tase me or anything like that. i don't think they knew what to expect...
having said that, my shrink is an asshole. but like my best friend said, "if they were awesome at their jobs, they wouldn't be working at the VA hospital." he asked me what i wanted to do. i told him that i didn't want to be admitted. the next words out of his mouth? they can admit me for a psych evaluation. *headdesk* after a few moments, he decided to "remand" me into kim's "custody". the deal is if i start getting remotely agitated again, i have to go back. no doubt that if that happens, i will be admitted/committed and all. the important thing is the fact that he finally listened to me. the abilify leaves me zonked. so he finally decided to change my med cocktail. he's going to wean me off of the abilify while titrating me up on lamictal. the wellbutrin is back for smoking cessation. of course, there's some kind of hella scary side effect with the lamictal--stevens-johnsons, which is a fatal generalized skin rash. that sounds like fun! seriously though, it's extremely rare. like one out of 10,000 people rare. (lord, i hope i'm not that one...)
so... don't know what i can say other than thank all of you for the well wishes. i'm home and in one piece. no work for a week. i'm going back to school on monday. right now, i just feel kind of blah and i have had a terrible migraine for days. i don't know how long it will take to get stabilized. i don't know when i'll be back to "normal" for me. here's hoping it's soon.