If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out
Ok, so I've decided I need to do more blogging. Not for anyone's benefit but my own. I've been trying to remember when specific things happened over the last year, but since I've kept no record I'm left to wonder. From now on I want to document my daily occurrences better.
So to catch up to speed...
I am in the process of buying a condo. It's in Dayville. I like the location, as it's closer to my parents and to my jobs. Norwich has proven to be too far of a commute, especially with the steadily increasing gas prices. So the condo is a one bedroom. Very small. Newly updated kitchen with nice appliances. Plush carpeting. I'll be allowed to have one small pet (no dogs). The condo has nice security features. And it'll be nice to actually own my own home! I need to buy some furniture for the place, as I have none of my own. But I can take a lot of the furniture that my grandmother can't fit into her place. I think I'll really only need to get a futon, so I will have a place for guests to sleep. And a small dining room table. And I'll need some small appliances for the kitchen. I'm excited! I can't wait to have my own place. Not that living with Kevin has been bad, it beats living with my folks. But it'll be nice just to have my own space and not have to worry about anyone else.
And as I'm moving closer to my roots, and out of Norwich, I saw fit to break things off with Andy. Not that anything was bad with our relationship, but I didn't see it going anywhere. And the distance wasn't going to bring us any closer together. I'll miss being with him, but I feel it was the right thing to do. I just hope I won't get too lonely. Maybe someday I'll find someone else. Maybe...
In theatre news, I might AD for You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown in Killingly this summer. It'll depend on what I find for work, but I'm hoping to be involved in the show. I need to get away from the Bradley for a while.
So those are the big things going on in my life. Now if only I could figure out how I feel about everything. I just feel like a mess today. I am nervous, excited, scared, and overwhelmed about the condo. I don't really feel any different about breaking up with Andy. I kinda have to keep reminding myself that it's over. But when we first got together I didn't feel much different either.
Mostly today I've been upset about theatre. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother with it. It's something I used to love. But I'm finding that if I get too involved in it, then it feels more like a chore than something I enjoy doing. That's why I've stopped doing every show, and cut back to only 3 or 4 a year. In some ways the theatre makes me feel really good about myself. I meet new people, make new friends. I learn many things. I get congratulated for a job well done. It can be so rewarding taking a show from the script and putting it on stage for people to see. Yet it can also be stressful. Thankless. Unrewarding. And over-looked. That is how I am currently feeling about it. Mostly over-looked. Unnecessary. Inept.
Community theatre at it's heart is done by and for the community. If you want to go do a professional show go to Broadway. Community theatre is about learning, trying new things, making mistakes. It's about getting to see your dentist up on stage, or your mailman. It's not about being perfect. Sometimes good enough is ok. But above everything else, it should be fun. No one is there to do a job. Everyone is there cuz they chose to be. And the people in the community theatre need to be treated with respect because their skill or talent will be put to use elsewhere if they feel mistreated.
So that's where I'm at. I've seen a lot of shows lately. Some better than others, but they all had there shining moments. And that's what it's all about isn't it?
So to catch up to speed...
I am in the process of buying a condo. It's in Dayville. I like the location, as it's closer to my parents and to my jobs. Norwich has proven to be too far of a commute, especially with the steadily increasing gas prices. So the condo is a one bedroom. Very small. Newly updated kitchen with nice appliances. Plush carpeting. I'll be allowed to have one small pet (no dogs). The condo has nice security features. And it'll be nice to actually own my own home! I need to buy some furniture for the place, as I have none of my own. But I can take a lot of the furniture that my grandmother can't fit into her place. I think I'll really only need to get a futon, so I will have a place for guests to sleep. And a small dining room table. And I'll need some small appliances for the kitchen. I'm excited! I can't wait to have my own place. Not that living with Kevin has been bad, it beats living with my folks. But it'll be nice just to have my own space and not have to worry about anyone else.
And as I'm moving closer to my roots, and out of Norwich, I saw fit to break things off with Andy. Not that anything was bad with our relationship, but I didn't see it going anywhere. And the distance wasn't going to bring us any closer together. I'll miss being with him, but I feel it was the right thing to do. I just hope I won't get too lonely. Maybe someday I'll find someone else. Maybe...
In theatre news, I might AD for You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown in Killingly this summer. It'll depend on what I find for work, but I'm hoping to be involved in the show. I need to get away from the Bradley for a while.
So those are the big things going on in my life. Now if only I could figure out how I feel about everything. I just feel like a mess today. I am nervous, excited, scared, and overwhelmed about the condo. I don't really feel any different about breaking up with Andy. I kinda have to keep reminding myself that it's over. But when we first got together I didn't feel much different either.
Mostly today I've been upset about theatre. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother with it. It's something I used to love. But I'm finding that if I get too involved in it, then it feels more like a chore than something I enjoy doing. That's why I've stopped doing every show, and cut back to only 3 or 4 a year. In some ways the theatre makes me feel really good about myself. I meet new people, make new friends. I learn many things. I get congratulated for a job well done. It can be so rewarding taking a show from the script and putting it on stage for people to see. Yet it can also be stressful. Thankless. Unrewarding. And over-looked. That is how I am currently feeling about it. Mostly over-looked. Unnecessary. Inept.
Community theatre at it's heart is done by and for the community. If you want to go do a professional show go to Broadway. Community theatre is about learning, trying new things, making mistakes. It's about getting to see your dentist up on stage, or your mailman. It's not about being perfect. Sometimes good enough is ok. But above everything else, it should be fun. No one is there to do a job. Everyone is there cuz they chose to be. And the people in the community theatre need to be treated with respect because their skill or talent will be put to use elsewhere if they feel mistreated.
So that's where I'm at. I've seen a lot of shows lately. Some better than others, but they all had there shining moments. And that's what it's all about isn't it?