By brain is on crack...like seriously.
So today was a rollercoaster of emotions. Well I haven't had my period in 3 months...and no I'm not pregnant, I've checked, and today was all that emotion bottled up into one day.
Exclusion sucks, but having certain firneds to always know when somethings wrong realy know how to brighten a day. After school went on joyride with LP, Danielle, Ariel and Steven Salts.... weird crowd-I know. making wrong turns and getting lost is always mad cool.
Then went to City place and talked a bunch about sex,drugs and rock & roll of course. Went back to school for Ames' show tonight, and that's where the fun began.
Just listening to Mr. Ames warm up on the piano brought me to tears, that man is incredible I tell you, and we are SO lucky to have him. He knew something was up with me too. We talked and he always seems to know how to make me feel just a little bit better.
We sat down to watch Lisa Davis' concert, and I was blown away. The woman has an unbelievable voice and the whole concept of the show was incredible. Mr. Ames was gorgeous on the piano and his arrangments were to die for.
I laughed, I cried... no joke...i really did. And was an inch away form falling out of my seat because I was so close to the edge the whole night.
"Art, life, dreams, love. That's the journey." The show reinstated what I had ,for a brief moment, forgotten. That this here was what it's all about. And I cant imagine myself doing anything else for the rest of my life.
So here's the other epiphany, I'm not going to run for thespian President. Watching the show tonight I decided that that's what I cared most...I cared about my art. And running for president or being president for that matter would almost take the fun out of it all.
A wise man once told me...Okay it was Mr Sims, that three things are going to matter next year.
1.Getting into the right college
2. my grades
3. my art.
Being thespian president wouldn't help any of these things for me. SO why not focus all my attention on something that will. Getting into shows, my IEs, Actions, and a "special project" here or there.
PJ and I collaborated on a great ida for a special project here and there ...but we'll discuss that on a later note.
But for now I need to focus on today and maybe even tomorrow.
Because I don't want to regret any day of it form here on out.
oliveyouall-
KB
Exclusion sucks, but having certain firneds to always know when somethings wrong realy know how to brighten a day. After school went on joyride with LP, Danielle, Ariel and Steven Salts.... weird crowd-I know. making wrong turns and getting lost is always mad cool.
Then went to City place and talked a bunch about sex,drugs and rock & roll of course. Went back to school for Ames' show tonight, and that's where the fun began.
Just listening to Mr. Ames warm up on the piano brought me to tears, that man is incredible I tell you, and we are SO lucky to have him. He knew something was up with me too. We talked and he always seems to know how to make me feel just a little bit better.
We sat down to watch Lisa Davis' concert, and I was blown away. The woman has an unbelievable voice and the whole concept of the show was incredible. Mr. Ames was gorgeous on the piano and his arrangments were to die for.
I laughed, I cried... no joke...i really did. And was an inch away form falling out of my seat because I was so close to the edge the whole night.
"Art, life, dreams, love. That's the journey." The show reinstated what I had ,for a brief moment, forgotten. That this here was what it's all about. And I cant imagine myself doing anything else for the rest of my life.
So here's the other epiphany, I'm not going to run for thespian President. Watching the show tonight I decided that that's what I cared most...I cared about my art. And running for president or being president for that matter would almost take the fun out of it all.
A wise man once told me...Okay it was Mr Sims, that three things are going to matter next year.
1.Getting into the right college
2. my grades
3. my art.
Being thespian president wouldn't help any of these things for me. SO why not focus all my attention on something that will. Getting into shows, my IEs, Actions, and a "special project" here or there.
PJ and I collaborated on a great ida for a special project here and there ...but we'll discuss that on a later note.
But for now I need to focus on today and maybe even tomorrow.
Because I don't want to regret any day of it form here on out.
oliveyouall-
KB