Wanted, Dead or Alive...
So its just after 2am, ive been working on diff eqs since about 5pm. I have 2/3s of 1 problem out of 5 done. So, fuck it! I don’t care. 7 hours and not one single problem done. I thought I had 4 of them done, but the website is a retarted piece of shit and wont take my answers that the TA told me were correct, so, fuck it. Ill vent for a little while then email the prof and tell him that I went and got help, I was told those were the correct answers, and what else can I do? Ggggrrrrr…. Did I mention I hate diff eqs? 4 more days, 4 more days, 4 more days. I swear that is the only thought that gets me through the night.
Well now that that’s off my chest, kind of, its been a while since ive updated. What a busy couple of weeks! Where to start? Since it would take way to long to go into detail about everything that has happened since then, im cranky, and I have pms, ill just give ya the readers digest version. Been hanging out with kerri and her crowd a lot. Getting to know bill a lil better, unfortunately I think hes another one of those guys that will remain in the ‘just friends’ category. Hes a really sweet guy, but, and I know about 4 people who will cringe when they read this, hes almost too sweet and too nice. Now im not saying im one of those girls who wants to be treated like shit by her boyfriend cuz that’s absolutely not the case, I would kick a guys ass before I let him treat me like shit. But I want someone who isn’t afraid to challenge me. Someone who will argue with me and tell me when im being stupid or when Im wrong. I mean, bill let me win at pool one game, and I know he did whether hell admit it or not, and I wanted to scream! I mean, just play the game. There’s chivalry which is nice, and it is important, but letting me win or just agreeing with me all the time, that’s no way to have a relationship. I dunno… I was talking with Buddy earlier and I realized that im too picky and will probably end up old an alone. When I finish ranting im gonna make a list of all the qualities I want and don’t want in a guy and hope for feedback to see where im going wrong… again, more later on that…
Kerri came up to visit me at school this week. She came up Monday night (the eve of her 21st b-day!) and stayed till Tuesday. How do I even begin describing that night? Wow… we went with my friends jayr (the kid im gonna move in with next year) Jeremy, and pete to play pool for a while. It was jayrs 20th birthday and the guy @ the door wasn’t too smart so he got the 21+ stamp on his hand, which meant he could drink all night, and kerri got one too, pete and Jeremy are both over 21. so I was the only one there who couldn’t drink. That’s fine, not a huge drinker anyway. So I bought kerri and jayr each their first official drinks and we played pool for a few hours. Then kerri pete and I went back to jeremys apt. for a while to hang out and have a few drinks. As I said its was kerris 21st, so whether you drink or not, youre pretty much obligated to get shitfaced. Around here you are anyways… so we played the ‘get fucked up’ game, also known as follow the 2. yea, we got fucked up. Well kerri did anyway cuz we kinda stacked the deck, lol. So after playing one game, in which, might I add, I didn’t think she drank all that much, kerri and I decided to go back to my room. But half way there she decided she wanted me to call jayr, and at that point I didn’t realize how drunk she was… so I called him and she basically went with him for a booty call. at least that’s what I thought, until I got a call 10 mins later from jayr telling me to come get her, shes puking. Lol, great! So I went and got her and she came back to my room where she proceeded to puke until 2pm the next afternoon. I dunno, its funny to me. I was a good friend and held her hair all night while making fun of her. If nothing else, it’s a birthday she wont soon forget. Happy birthday hun! You know I only did it cuz I love you!
Hey buddy, kerri came up, that means your next on the list!!!
I hate diff eqs.
Did my taxes finally. Getting about 1500 back. Pretty sweet. That’s the deposit on my apt for next year. The rest will go in the bank to try and recoup from not working right now, which sucks. I hate not having money like I used to. I mean, my mom gives me money when I need it, but I hate going to her. I havnt don’t that in 3 years, ive always worked and it sucks to depend on her now. Oh well, ill be making good money over the summer @ amgen with my internship and whatnot, and that’s like 2 months away, so I guess ill just suffer till then.
In more somber news, my uncles father passed away last week. I felt really bad, I didn’t really know his dad, but hes been with my aunt for like 10 years and hes really an awesome guy so I feel bad he has to go through that. I didn’t find out about it till the afternoon of the funeral so I couldn’t attend the services which sucked because I really wanted to pay my respects, but I sent him a nice card and had flowers delivered.
In other bad news, Teddy Bruschi apparently had a blood vessel erupt in his head. And to anyone who knows anything, you can tell that’s bad, but as a biomedical engineer I know exactly what that can do and the long term impacts from even one insolated incident and although its kind of out of the press for the moment, we may not be seeing teddy back on the turf anytime soon… only time will tell.. as much as I love to see him play and the intensity he brings to the game, some things are just more important. And with three young sons at home, he doesn’t need to chance missing them grown up.
Going to see Rascal Flatts on sat. night with a bunch of people. Should be an awesome show. Blake Sheldon is opening and hes pretty good too. The only bad thing is its out in Amherst which is like 2.5 hours from warwick. Were just gonna get a hotel room for the night and not chance driving back with all the drunk people out that late on a sat. night. I bought a cowboy hat last week for the concert, it looks so cute! I love it. I wore it around the day I bought it, it was so funny, youd of thought I had 3 heads by the looks I was getting. I went to the Sprint store to pay my phone bill and the guy behind the counter asked me where I was from so I told him RI. Apparently disappointed with my answer he asked where I was born, so I told him RI. It was so funny, he couldn’t comprehend someone from here wearing a cowboy hat. The day continued like that, the grocery store was pretty amusing too…
I will bump todays words of wisdom up a notch incase anyone doesn’t feel like listening to me babble some more about guys and all that good stuff, but is interested in my words of wisdom. Nothing too earth shattering today, just a task everyone should complete. At least once a week, pick up a national news paper and read it. Learn what is going on in the world. Too many young people don’t know anything outside their direct realm of contact. I mean, who reading this knows that Al Ji’Haad was just elected in Iraq. What are his beliefs? What will this mean for the us? I know, do you? These are important things that will effect your future, learn about them. Read at least one section other than the sports page too. Sports are good, but try and at least catch the headlines on the cover. Personally, I read the USA today every morning. It’s a good paper, pretty concise and I know whats going on in the world. Youd be amazed at how little effort it takes and how impressive it can be to someone, particularly an adult, if you can carry on a conversation about something other than cafeteria food at school.
Warning, this next section may be completely boring and useless to some readers. I will basically list what I do and do not want in a guy, more for my own benefit than anything else. I know a lot of it may seem contradictory, but it makes sense to me. If you have questions, comments, or think you’re my dream guy, leave a comment, send me an im, or drop an email… I want different views on this, guy and girl, so I can figure out if im too picky or if I just havnt found the right guy…
Looks:
Do:
~have a goatee, no guy could ever look bad with a goatee as far as im concerned. And have a goatee, not a mustache, not a beard, not peach fuzz that makes you look 12, a goatee
~be in decent physical condition. Im not saying you have to be the next Arnold, but at least make it look like you care. A few extra pounds is preferred to being underweight. When were cuddling I don’t want to have to worry about eating that extra Oreo a few days ago and now your waist is smaller than mine.. not good…
~have short hair. I love playing with guys hair, but playing with the shaved part of the back of your head is hot, running my fingers through your hair is not. YOU should be running your fingers throught MY hair not the other way around
~smell good. Its just sexy..
~wear clothes that fit. Don’t wear clothes that look like you could fit 4 more people in them and don’t wear clothes that would fit a Barbie, that’s my job
~brush your teeth daily. It only takes 2 mins and you would be surprised at the outcome compared to that if you didn’t brush
Don’t
~smell bad. Unless your just leaving the gym, in which case the smell of sweat can be considered sexy, BO is just gross. It doesn’t make me warm and fuzzy inside, it makes me want to go buy you deoderant
~try to be prettier than I am. You have no need to dye your hair, get your nails done, or wear makeup of any kind on any day other than October 31st.
~wiggle your ass when you walk. Im sorry, it doesn’t look like your strutting or your tough, it looks like your gay and you just had a very unpleasant experience that is making walking difficult.
Personality:
Do:
~make me laugh. My week is so serious I rarely find time to laugh and enjoy myself, so when were together, help me relax and have a good time. However, do not be confused with making me laugh and being immature or an idiot. This is a very distinct line and once crossed its nearly impossible to get back
~be smart. This does not mean be an engineer or that I care whether or not you can derive a complex logistic model for harvesting, that’s my job. But be able to talk about the big things going on in the world other than how much Arod sucks or what football player does drugs. This goes back to the read the paper thing. If you like philosophy, or will at least listen to me talk about it, that’s brownie points since that’s my minor
~ask about my day, and listen to what I say. Simple.
~be open to new things. So you know nothing about philosophy? You know how you feel and what you believe, talk about it. Never been rollerblading? Lets go.,,
~that leads to the next point, keep life interesting. Sure every Tuesday can be pizza night, but lets do something new once in a while too.
~have a mind of your own. Don’t accept everything I say just because I said it. Question it, tell me your opinion
~ARGUE WITH ME! I know that sounds weird and probably stupid, but every ‘nice’ guy ive ever dated has been afraid to argue with me and just goes with the flow all the time. While its sweet and I can appriciate where your coming from, its extremely frustrating and makes life boring.
~treat me like a lady. Open my doors, at least once in a while. If im wearing a skirt or a dress, offer me a hand getting in/out of the car. If were @ a restaurant and you get served before I do, wait till I get my food to eat.
~make me feel like a woman. When we go out in public, make sure I know you only have eyes for me. When I wake up in the morning and look like shit, tell me how beautiful I am.
~give me back rubs :o) I think youll find your amply rewarded with usually a much longer back rub of your own..
~expect a lot of me. I will be expecting it from you
~communicate. Tell me what im doing to make you feel bad, that makes you feel good, what you had for lunch. Chances are unless you live in Worcester im not gonna see you more than once, maybe twice a week, without communication, what is there?
~have your own life. If I decide your someone I want to date, I must like something about you the way you are. Don’t change. Especially for me. If you play poker on Monday nights, play poker on Monday nights. I have my own life and my own friends and I had them before you so I understand you have people in your life before me. Think about it, if I see you blowing off everyone else for me, while ill be happy at first and feel good, eventually its gonna click that if your willing to blow them off for me, eventually youll blow me off for someone else. Keep your priorities, theyre something I like about you.
~let me have my life. I have a lot of guy friends. I go to WPI, how could I not? But for 2 years they have been just that, friends. Trust me to be with them, a lot. Im gonna be living with a guy next year, I trust him with my life. You should trust him with my life. I have my own rituals ive gotten used to from being and living alone, some can change, some wont. That’s just the way it is.
~on the other hand, a little, teeny tiny bit of jealousy is sexy as hell. It lets me know your thinking about me and im important enough to you for you to be concerned. Just don’t let it get out of hand.
~have a passion. something you care about and devote time and effort to. i dont care whatit is, collect beanie babies for all i care. ok, well maybe that would be a little weird, but have something in your life you are passionate about. this shows me several important things. you have the ability to experience passion, that you can put your feelings aside for something important to you, this also goes along with the whole have your own life thing. i spend pretty much all week busy with school, which is basically my passion, i need to know you have something to occupy your time too. my passion is the family i will someday have. i grew up in a low income single parent family, my children will not. im setting myself up now so thatif i need to raise a family myself i have the money and ability to do it.
Don’t
~smoke. its just gross. your breath smells bad, your teeth turn yellow, its a waste of money, your breath smells bad...
~patronize me. Ever. Chances are itll be the last thing you do with me. We all do and say stupid things, no need to make someone you supposedly care about feel stupid
~insult my family. Ever. I gripe and groan about my mother constantly, you may not do the same. Deep down I love her, you do not, if you ever want me to love you, you will at least pretend to love her and all other members of my family
~think your better than anyone else. Everyone has weaknesses and strengths. Get over it :o)
well I think that’s its for now, im sure there will be more, ill add them as they come. Time for me to try and get some shut eye.
Have a safe weekend! Call me if your around Friday night, no plans yet….
Stacy
Well now that that’s off my chest, kind of, its been a while since ive updated. What a busy couple of weeks! Where to start? Since it would take way to long to go into detail about everything that has happened since then, im cranky, and I have pms, ill just give ya the readers digest version. Been hanging out with kerri and her crowd a lot. Getting to know bill a lil better, unfortunately I think hes another one of those guys that will remain in the ‘just friends’ category. Hes a really sweet guy, but, and I know about 4 people who will cringe when they read this, hes almost too sweet and too nice. Now im not saying im one of those girls who wants to be treated like shit by her boyfriend cuz that’s absolutely not the case, I would kick a guys ass before I let him treat me like shit. But I want someone who isn’t afraid to challenge me. Someone who will argue with me and tell me when im being stupid or when Im wrong. I mean, bill let me win at pool one game, and I know he did whether hell admit it or not, and I wanted to scream! I mean, just play the game. There’s chivalry which is nice, and it is important, but letting me win or just agreeing with me all the time, that’s no way to have a relationship. I dunno… I was talking with Buddy earlier and I realized that im too picky and will probably end up old an alone. When I finish ranting im gonna make a list of all the qualities I want and don’t want in a guy and hope for feedback to see where im going wrong… again, more later on that…
Kerri came up to visit me at school this week. She came up Monday night (the eve of her 21st b-day!) and stayed till Tuesday. How do I even begin describing that night? Wow… we went with my friends jayr (the kid im gonna move in with next year) Jeremy, and pete to play pool for a while. It was jayrs 20th birthday and the guy @ the door wasn’t too smart so he got the 21+ stamp on his hand, which meant he could drink all night, and kerri got one too, pete and Jeremy are both over 21. so I was the only one there who couldn’t drink. That’s fine, not a huge drinker anyway. So I bought kerri and jayr each their first official drinks and we played pool for a few hours. Then kerri pete and I went back to jeremys apt. for a while to hang out and have a few drinks. As I said its was kerris 21st, so whether you drink or not, youre pretty much obligated to get shitfaced. Around here you are anyways… so we played the ‘get fucked up’ game, also known as follow the 2. yea, we got fucked up. Well kerri did anyway cuz we kinda stacked the deck, lol. So after playing one game, in which, might I add, I didn’t think she drank all that much, kerri and I decided to go back to my room. But half way there she decided she wanted me to call jayr, and at that point I didn’t realize how drunk she was… so I called him and she basically went with him for a booty call. at least that’s what I thought, until I got a call 10 mins later from jayr telling me to come get her, shes puking. Lol, great! So I went and got her and she came back to my room where she proceeded to puke until 2pm the next afternoon. I dunno, its funny to me. I was a good friend and held her hair all night while making fun of her. If nothing else, it’s a birthday she wont soon forget. Happy birthday hun! You know I only did it cuz I love you!
Hey buddy, kerri came up, that means your next on the list!!!
I hate diff eqs.
Did my taxes finally. Getting about 1500 back. Pretty sweet. That’s the deposit on my apt for next year. The rest will go in the bank to try and recoup from not working right now, which sucks. I hate not having money like I used to. I mean, my mom gives me money when I need it, but I hate going to her. I havnt don’t that in 3 years, ive always worked and it sucks to depend on her now. Oh well, ill be making good money over the summer @ amgen with my internship and whatnot, and that’s like 2 months away, so I guess ill just suffer till then.
In more somber news, my uncles father passed away last week. I felt really bad, I didn’t really know his dad, but hes been with my aunt for like 10 years and hes really an awesome guy so I feel bad he has to go through that. I didn’t find out about it till the afternoon of the funeral so I couldn’t attend the services which sucked because I really wanted to pay my respects, but I sent him a nice card and had flowers delivered.
In other bad news, Teddy Bruschi apparently had a blood vessel erupt in his head. And to anyone who knows anything, you can tell that’s bad, but as a biomedical engineer I know exactly what that can do and the long term impacts from even one insolated incident and although its kind of out of the press for the moment, we may not be seeing teddy back on the turf anytime soon… only time will tell.. as much as I love to see him play and the intensity he brings to the game, some things are just more important. And with three young sons at home, he doesn’t need to chance missing them grown up.
Going to see Rascal Flatts on sat. night with a bunch of people. Should be an awesome show. Blake Sheldon is opening and hes pretty good too. The only bad thing is its out in Amherst which is like 2.5 hours from warwick. Were just gonna get a hotel room for the night and not chance driving back with all the drunk people out that late on a sat. night. I bought a cowboy hat last week for the concert, it looks so cute! I love it. I wore it around the day I bought it, it was so funny, youd of thought I had 3 heads by the looks I was getting. I went to the Sprint store to pay my phone bill and the guy behind the counter asked me where I was from so I told him RI. Apparently disappointed with my answer he asked where I was born, so I told him RI. It was so funny, he couldn’t comprehend someone from here wearing a cowboy hat. The day continued like that, the grocery store was pretty amusing too…
I will bump todays words of wisdom up a notch incase anyone doesn’t feel like listening to me babble some more about guys and all that good stuff, but is interested in my words of wisdom. Nothing too earth shattering today, just a task everyone should complete. At least once a week, pick up a national news paper and read it. Learn what is going on in the world. Too many young people don’t know anything outside their direct realm of contact. I mean, who reading this knows that Al Ji’Haad was just elected in Iraq. What are his beliefs? What will this mean for the us? I know, do you? These are important things that will effect your future, learn about them. Read at least one section other than the sports page too. Sports are good, but try and at least catch the headlines on the cover. Personally, I read the USA today every morning. It’s a good paper, pretty concise and I know whats going on in the world. Youd be amazed at how little effort it takes and how impressive it can be to someone, particularly an adult, if you can carry on a conversation about something other than cafeteria food at school.
Warning, this next section may be completely boring and useless to some readers. I will basically list what I do and do not want in a guy, more for my own benefit than anything else. I know a lot of it may seem contradictory, but it makes sense to me. If you have questions, comments, or think you’re my dream guy, leave a comment, send me an im, or drop an email… I want different views on this, guy and girl, so I can figure out if im too picky or if I just havnt found the right guy…
Looks:
Do:
~have a goatee, no guy could ever look bad with a goatee as far as im concerned. And have a goatee, not a mustache, not a beard, not peach fuzz that makes you look 12, a goatee
~be in decent physical condition. Im not saying you have to be the next Arnold, but at least make it look like you care. A few extra pounds is preferred to being underweight. When were cuddling I don’t want to have to worry about eating that extra Oreo a few days ago and now your waist is smaller than mine.. not good…
~have short hair. I love playing with guys hair, but playing with the shaved part of the back of your head is hot, running my fingers through your hair is not. YOU should be running your fingers throught MY hair not the other way around
~smell good. Its just sexy..
~wear clothes that fit. Don’t wear clothes that look like you could fit 4 more people in them and don’t wear clothes that would fit a Barbie, that’s my job
~brush your teeth daily. It only takes 2 mins and you would be surprised at the outcome compared to that if you didn’t brush
Don’t
~smell bad. Unless your just leaving the gym, in which case the smell of sweat can be considered sexy, BO is just gross. It doesn’t make me warm and fuzzy inside, it makes me want to go buy you deoderant
~try to be prettier than I am. You have no need to dye your hair, get your nails done, or wear makeup of any kind on any day other than October 31st.
~wiggle your ass when you walk. Im sorry, it doesn’t look like your strutting or your tough, it looks like your gay and you just had a very unpleasant experience that is making walking difficult.
Personality:
Do:
~make me laugh. My week is so serious I rarely find time to laugh and enjoy myself, so when were together, help me relax and have a good time. However, do not be confused with making me laugh and being immature or an idiot. This is a very distinct line and once crossed its nearly impossible to get back
~be smart. This does not mean be an engineer or that I care whether or not you can derive a complex logistic model for harvesting, that’s my job. But be able to talk about the big things going on in the world other than how much Arod sucks or what football player does drugs. This goes back to the read the paper thing. If you like philosophy, or will at least listen to me talk about it, that’s brownie points since that’s my minor
~ask about my day, and listen to what I say. Simple.
~be open to new things. So you know nothing about philosophy? You know how you feel and what you believe, talk about it. Never been rollerblading? Lets go.,,
~that leads to the next point, keep life interesting. Sure every Tuesday can be pizza night, but lets do something new once in a while too.
~have a mind of your own. Don’t accept everything I say just because I said it. Question it, tell me your opinion
~ARGUE WITH ME! I know that sounds weird and probably stupid, but every ‘nice’ guy ive ever dated has been afraid to argue with me and just goes with the flow all the time. While its sweet and I can appriciate where your coming from, its extremely frustrating and makes life boring.
~treat me like a lady. Open my doors, at least once in a while. If im wearing a skirt or a dress, offer me a hand getting in/out of the car. If were @ a restaurant and you get served before I do, wait till I get my food to eat.
~make me feel like a woman. When we go out in public, make sure I know you only have eyes for me. When I wake up in the morning and look like shit, tell me how beautiful I am.
~give me back rubs :o) I think youll find your amply rewarded with usually a much longer back rub of your own..
~expect a lot of me. I will be expecting it from you
~communicate. Tell me what im doing to make you feel bad, that makes you feel good, what you had for lunch. Chances are unless you live in Worcester im not gonna see you more than once, maybe twice a week, without communication, what is there?
~have your own life. If I decide your someone I want to date, I must like something about you the way you are. Don’t change. Especially for me. If you play poker on Monday nights, play poker on Monday nights. I have my own life and my own friends and I had them before you so I understand you have people in your life before me. Think about it, if I see you blowing off everyone else for me, while ill be happy at first and feel good, eventually its gonna click that if your willing to blow them off for me, eventually youll blow me off for someone else. Keep your priorities, theyre something I like about you.
~let me have my life. I have a lot of guy friends. I go to WPI, how could I not? But for 2 years they have been just that, friends. Trust me to be with them, a lot. Im gonna be living with a guy next year, I trust him with my life. You should trust him with my life. I have my own rituals ive gotten used to from being and living alone, some can change, some wont. That’s just the way it is.
~on the other hand, a little, teeny tiny bit of jealousy is sexy as hell. It lets me know your thinking about me and im important enough to you for you to be concerned. Just don’t let it get out of hand.
~have a passion. something you care about and devote time and effort to. i dont care whatit is, collect beanie babies for all i care. ok, well maybe that would be a little weird, but have something in your life you are passionate about. this shows me several important things. you have the ability to experience passion, that you can put your feelings aside for something important to you, this also goes along with the whole have your own life thing. i spend pretty much all week busy with school, which is basically my passion, i need to know you have something to occupy your time too. my passion is the family i will someday have. i grew up in a low income single parent family, my children will not. im setting myself up now so thatif i need to raise a family myself i have the money and ability to do it.
Don’t
~smoke. its just gross. your breath smells bad, your teeth turn yellow, its a waste of money, your breath smells bad...
~patronize me. Ever. Chances are itll be the last thing you do with me. We all do and say stupid things, no need to make someone you supposedly care about feel stupid
~insult my family. Ever. I gripe and groan about my mother constantly, you may not do the same. Deep down I love her, you do not, if you ever want me to love you, you will at least pretend to love her and all other members of my family
~think your better than anyone else. Everyone has weaknesses and strengths. Get over it :o)
well I think that’s its for now, im sure there will be more, ill add them as they come. Time for me to try and get some shut eye.
Have a safe weekend! Call me if your around Friday night, no plans yet….
Stacy