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i'm so sick of posting these whiny, bitchy, sad, whatever they are, blogs. but ugh i have so much shit on my mind.
i still like you. and i really dont think i'm going to let it develop into anything more than where it already is, i'm just too scared that i'll end up getting fucked over...again. i knowww you're working at fixing this too, but i just can't go through with this. =/
if we wouldnt have laid down and shit the other night at work this wouldnt be going through my head. damnitttt.
funny thing is, i dont know why i like you. haha! what da eff.
i had a dream the other night my cousin got in a car wreck and died. and its still scaring the shit out of me. i keep thinking its real and ugh, no good. i keep thinking i've lost my best friend, but it was just a damn dream. if i lost that kid i seriously don't know what i'd do.
i still like you. and i really dont think i'm going to let it develop into anything more than where it already is, i'm just too scared that i'll end up getting fucked over...again. i knowww you're working at fixing this too, but i just can't go through with this. =/
if we wouldnt have laid down and shit the other night at work this wouldnt be going through my head. damnitttt.
funny thing is, i dont know why i like you. haha! what da eff.
i had a dream the other night my cousin got in a car wreck and died. and its still scaring the shit out of me. i keep thinking its real and ugh, no good. i keep thinking i've lost my best friend, but it was just a damn dream. if i lost that kid i seriously don't know what i'd do.