My Baby
The day I found out I was having you so many things went through my head.
, not all good.
I was angry, you were conceived not in love,
I was wondrous that you were inside me,
I was ill because you hated everything I loved.
You fluttered in my womb and did gymnastics
You beat me up from the inside out, leaving bruises at times even.
I was in love with you even as you made me become an evil monster at times
You were born and you were beautiful.
Gorgeous dark auburn curls and muddy green eyes looking up at me and I knew I'd always protect and love you
Our paths weaved back and forth as you grew up from my perfect baby to my broken son.
You were angry and hurtful but my love was strong enough to go past that. You wanted to die and I protected you from your demons
The disease grips you and finally you realize that you want to live so I am here
I will fight with you, I will fight for you
I will do whatever I need to so you remain
Because I look in those eyes and see my baby
You may be grown and facing your fears,
The disease gives you no choice
I am your rock, my love is your constant.
Together we are invincible and you are my very own superhero.
I'm told I may lose you but I will not entertain
thoughts of such negativity from the medical community. They see and treat the disease,
I see and care for my child
I almost lost you to your fear and anxiety
You almost left me because you were too scared to stay.
Now we both fight to stay together on this plane. We will not lose to a disease
And though my heart may be shattering
It beats for you always
You were a child I didn't ask for. You are a gift I can never be thankful enough for
I see your pain and tears, my tears mingle with yours. We are individuals but we are one
And the disease will never dare take you from me. You made a scared irresponsible child into an adult and I will protect you and be with you always.