the start of the new year

[staciejvb23]

new years...awesome...the days up until school starts...awesome...the days to follow..scary...i'm extremely excited for school to begin but im kind of scared that its winding down soon and i still have no idea what i really really want to do...if i had it my way i would just travel the world, not pay rent, and help people....i hate being lost still i have ideas but nothing is setting into stone and i cant wait for my niche to catch hold of me and drag me along...im beginning to think ill be one of those people that just does school the rest of their lives or has many many jobs at one time...if i go into being a counselor i want to start up coaching or starts clubs and get kids back into the mind set that school is a fun learning place to broaden your horizon...i think kids now a days only think school more as a social gathering and are pushing school studies aside...ive noticed the decline at st. francis with club members and sports players...things are dying due to loss of interest and i think its due to teachers being burnt out...and what did our counselors and other school board members do while they are AT school...sit on their asses in their office and complain about the students...i was a member of the student union::when it existed:: and they didnt even listen to us at all...can you believe they stopping holding ceremonies for those who made it to honors or high honors...we tried fighting to get that back in hopes it would give students at least somewhat of a goal to do well in school and they said no...AND my counselor i only saw once...when she had to do role call for graduating seniors to see where they want to go in life and give them a packet to read..what a commitment to the student futures ayyy...they all just sit there drinking coffee...if your not willing to fix it hands on then dont complain...cars dont become fixed by yelling at them...ANY WHO...if i go on the psychology side and push it further than counseling i would go to get my masters and phd in forensic psych or neuropsych....ive allways been fascinated by why people act and do things the way they do...biologically and mentally...but im still unsure...i guess that field takes very very long and allllotttt of people want to get into it...blah...then there is my criminal justice degree...this would help for a second job if i go into psych stuff but it has its own possibilities...paralegalling...becoming a lawyer...work in an embassy somewheres...go into government or local junk...i dont know...theres a list of possibilities for me with two huge fields...im sure ill find a fit

NOW FOR THE JUICE---joel finally made it to one of the schools!!!!...AHHHHHHHH...i couldnt be happier for him...hes worked so hard and is so brilliant that i would be crushed to see him only become declined...i couldnt imagine how he would feel...and i really hope all goes well..."and the school isnt that far ;)" HUGE EEEEEEEEEEEEEK...ive had an awesome time with him, but now with school and him working two jobs...i see us being tested once again...if you think of it our relationship has been spent the majority of its lifespan being apart...thank goodness for phones...but when we are together it seems like an explosion of smiles...i wanted to spend as much time as possible with him this winter break and i think i have succeeded in that...right now our schedules are totally opposite...but im sure when things settle into a groove itll smooth out and we will have time to do things again

hurry up groove i want my punka back!!!