end of feb and beginning of march
my sister is due in two months...im getting kicked out...i still dont understand joel and i...i graduate in the fall of next yr...im not moving to be with joel this summer im actually looking for my own place...finally filing for financial aid for once...my emotions are wrecked in a good way to were i dont give a shit anymore about anything cuz if i do it all comes down on me anyways...relationships fail, sisters get prego, parents kick you out...yeah im done with all that jazz...im feeling more beautiful adn independant than ever though...i can for once say i think im ready for the world to turn me into a woman...it may be shaky but im becoming ready...i pick up joel on thursday and i hope things go great were all this stuff doesnt haev to be weird and we can be like we used to...long distance is a pain in the arsnick...but the good thing is i know im strong enough for it :)