growing pains
So, I thought I'd give a short update. Things are alright I suppose. Well, not really, but they'll get better I hope. This weekend is really slow, but I'm going to wal-mart later b/c I need a few things. Work has been alright. Tedious at times but alright.
Anyway, I'm looking up apartments nad my move date is sometime in December. Problem though, have not yet told the family. Not sure how to do it. I had a dream about it the other night. I told everyone at the supper table and they told me I wasn't moving and that was all there is to it.
I'm really afraid that will happen. I'm afraid of no one helping me and never getting out. I'm afraid to tell them b/c how do you start that conversation with people that don't ever speak to you or look at you except to say "you use too much water" and "you almost made your father late for work" (b/c its my fault he doesn't get up early enough). How am I suppose to do this, I really don't know. So, I'm just stressed and scared to the point I'm making myself sick all over again. I just get so nausous. But hey, that's stress for you. I just have the "I want to go home" feeling, but where's that.
So anyway, I'm looking up cost of movers and what not in case worse comes to worse. I'm nervous about the whole thing, but I think it's right in the end. I just know I can't stay much longer. I'm on the edge as is, with one foot off.
I feel like I should attempt to make this entry somewhat happy. So. 1. The pants I bought at NY & CO a month and a half ago are now too big--yay! 2. Shopped online at work while making calls--hehe, we needed a break 3. Talked about traveling with my two nightly co-workers 4. "Not that I'm into Day beds or anything" 5. Giant Salad Bar, mmm, I heart it. 6. the new Vanilla White Russians from Kahlua (yummy yum yum)
Anyway, I'm looking up apartments nad my move date is sometime in December. Problem though, have not yet told the family. Not sure how to do it. I had a dream about it the other night. I told everyone at the supper table and they told me I wasn't moving and that was all there is to it.
I'm really afraid that will happen. I'm afraid of no one helping me and never getting out. I'm afraid to tell them b/c how do you start that conversation with people that don't ever speak to you or look at you except to say "you use too much water" and "you almost made your father late for work" (b/c its my fault he doesn't get up early enough). How am I suppose to do this, I really don't know. So, I'm just stressed and scared to the point I'm making myself sick all over again. I just get so nausous. But hey, that's stress for you. I just have the "I want to go home" feeling, but where's that.
So anyway, I'm looking up cost of movers and what not in case worse comes to worse. I'm nervous about the whole thing, but I think it's right in the end. I just know I can't stay much longer. I'm on the edge as is, with one foot off.
I feel like I should attempt to make this entry somewhat happy. So. 1. The pants I bought at NY & CO a month and a half ago are now too big--yay! 2. Shopped online at work while making calls--hehe, we needed a break 3. Talked about traveling with my two nightly co-workers 4. "Not that I'm into Day beds or anything" 5. Giant Salad Bar, mmm, I heart it. 6. the new Vanilla White Russians from Kahlua (yummy yum yum)