Chocolate Cake And Other Yummy Things
I am in a perticularly good mood today. No real reason i suppose. Maybe just a lot of little things.
Yesterday i was in such a down mood. Thoroughly depressed. In fact, i was a little scared, because of how depressed i was. It was not a good place to be at all, and i just couldn't snap myself out of it. The friends that i would normally go to when i am down, were at work and busy, so i settled in for a night at home, trying not to feel any worse...until i got a phone call from a friend of mine, who convinced me to go to high point with him. By the end of the shopping trip, i was actually feeling a heap better! I also got some kind of good news. Apparently Karl has taken a job that he was offered. Which is really good for him, but good for me also, because it means that he can't be working at Jimmys (the bar that we go to most Friday nights). So i can go without being worried about seeing him, or how he is going to react if i do something he doesn't like. That being said, it also means that i don't have anywhere that i can just bump into him anymore. But perhaps thats for the best. I wasn't going to go tonight, because i really didn't feel up to seeing him, but perhaps i can now. I have missed going out, coz i have been sick for so long, it will be good to get out of the house, and just have an enjoyable night, without worrying about what i do, and how i act.
On my shopping trip, i actually bought a pair of shorts!! I have only ever bought 3 pairs of shorts in my life, and i never wear them!!! But these ones are black, very cute, with a fine pinstripe through them, with the bottom of them turned up, and held there with a button...ok sounds silly, but they look good. So look out world, here come my legs!!! Now i just need to get a tan, so i don't blind people with my white legs! They haven't seen the sun in years.
Tonight i want to go out and find a hot hot hot outfit for tonight. I have had the flu for over a week, adn so i haven't been going out. Although I'm still pretty tired, i want to get out of the house, as i am going crazy!!! So the plan, i think, is to go to Jimmys with the others, for a bit at least. So i need to look hot! There is one perticular guy that i am hoping will be there....even more now that i know that Karl isn't going to be there, because if something happens, Karl wont crack the shits. I had been worried about how he would reack if i hooked up with this guy (not that i am looking for a relationship or anything, i still love Karl, but it is time to try and move on). So tehre you go. With enough alcohol, i think something might just happen, which is a little exciting for me, as i have gone so long without any kind of male contact. It' just nice to feel like someone might find me attractive. So yeah, i hope people can understand that.
Fridays are great days, for a few reasons. One is that usually at work, we spend from about 2:00 onwards at the pub, having lunch, and then having a few bottles of wine. (Not going today though, i have a coupld of things i need to do here, that will be best done without anyone else here). Also, it is pay day, another good thing, coz i am generally pretty broke by thursday, so now i feel rich again (until i spend it all tomorrow). Also, No matter how slowly the day goes (and it isn't going to slowly today) it is the last day for the working week, and not only can i make plans for tonight, but i can also look forward to 2 whole days of doing whatever i want to do. Tomorrow i am off to Sexpo with Jase, Troy, Kaye, Laura, Emily, and whoever else is coming. It's not really my type of thing, but i like the social aspect. Fingers crossed everyone comes, coz i like seeing them outside of a club context. It's easier to talk to people and get to know them properly when you don't have to yell over the music.
Other than that i have no plans for the weekend, which is fantastic as i have been booked out for the last few weekends, and have family plans next weekend. I just love to have time that i can do whatever i want to do. No obligations, and nothing expected of me.
I have left my phone at home today by mistake. It is one of the first times that not living up the road is a bummer, because i can't just run home and get it during lunch. But there you go. It's pretty sad how naked i feel without it. It's not like i use it all the time, or even get that many messages or anything, but it is nice to know that people can contact me if they need to. And i can contact them if i want to. It's wierd. After all, i am old enough to remember a time when no one had mobile phones, and to talk to them, you had to call and know their phone numbers. No days, i rely entierly on my phone book in my mobile. Heaven forbid i ever loose it!!!
Anyway, that time has come, that i really need to get back to pretending to do work. (the one thing i hate about fridays is that i don't have a heap to do, so i spend the day bumming, and trying to look like i am earning the money they are paying me.)
xoxoxo
Yesterday i was in such a down mood. Thoroughly depressed. In fact, i was a little scared, because of how depressed i was. It was not a good place to be at all, and i just couldn't snap myself out of it. The friends that i would normally go to when i am down, were at work and busy, so i settled in for a night at home, trying not to feel any worse...until i got a phone call from a friend of mine, who convinced me to go to high point with him. By the end of the shopping trip, i was actually feeling a heap better! I also got some kind of good news. Apparently Karl has taken a job that he was offered. Which is really good for him, but good for me also, because it means that he can't be working at Jimmys (the bar that we go to most Friday nights). So i can go without being worried about seeing him, or how he is going to react if i do something he doesn't like. That being said, it also means that i don't have anywhere that i can just bump into him anymore. But perhaps thats for the best. I wasn't going to go tonight, because i really didn't feel up to seeing him, but perhaps i can now. I have missed going out, coz i have been sick for so long, it will be good to get out of the house, and just have an enjoyable night, without worrying about what i do, and how i act.
On my shopping trip, i actually bought a pair of shorts!! I have only ever bought 3 pairs of shorts in my life, and i never wear them!!! But these ones are black, very cute, with a fine pinstripe through them, with the bottom of them turned up, and held there with a button...ok sounds silly, but they look good. So look out world, here come my legs!!! Now i just need to get a tan, so i don't blind people with my white legs! They haven't seen the sun in years.
Tonight i want to go out and find a hot hot hot outfit for tonight. I have had the flu for over a week, adn so i haven't been going out. Although I'm still pretty tired, i want to get out of the house, as i am going crazy!!! So the plan, i think, is to go to Jimmys with the others, for a bit at least. So i need to look hot! There is one perticular guy that i am hoping will be there....even more now that i know that Karl isn't going to be there, because if something happens, Karl wont crack the shits. I had been worried about how he would reack if i hooked up with this guy (not that i am looking for a relationship or anything, i still love Karl, but it is time to try and move on). So tehre you go. With enough alcohol, i think something might just happen, which is a little exciting for me, as i have gone so long without any kind of male contact. It' just nice to feel like someone might find me attractive. So yeah, i hope people can understand that.
Fridays are great days, for a few reasons. One is that usually at work, we spend from about 2:00 onwards at the pub, having lunch, and then having a few bottles of wine. (Not going today though, i have a coupld of things i need to do here, that will be best done without anyone else here). Also, it is pay day, another good thing, coz i am generally pretty broke by thursday, so now i feel rich again (until i spend it all tomorrow). Also, No matter how slowly the day goes (and it isn't going to slowly today) it is the last day for the working week, and not only can i make plans for tonight, but i can also look forward to 2 whole days of doing whatever i want to do. Tomorrow i am off to Sexpo with Jase, Troy, Kaye, Laura, Emily, and whoever else is coming. It's not really my type of thing, but i like the social aspect. Fingers crossed everyone comes, coz i like seeing them outside of a club context. It's easier to talk to people and get to know them properly when you don't have to yell over the music.
Other than that i have no plans for the weekend, which is fantastic as i have been booked out for the last few weekends, and have family plans next weekend. I just love to have time that i can do whatever i want to do. No obligations, and nothing expected of me.
I have left my phone at home today by mistake. It is one of the first times that not living up the road is a bummer, because i can't just run home and get it during lunch. But there you go. It's pretty sad how naked i feel without it. It's not like i use it all the time, or even get that many messages or anything, but it is nice to know that people can contact me if they need to. And i can contact them if i want to. It's wierd. After all, i am old enough to remember a time when no one had mobile phones, and to talk to them, you had to call and know their phone numbers. No days, i rely entierly on my phone book in my mobile. Heaven forbid i ever loose it!!!
Anyway, that time has come, that i really need to get back to pretending to do work. (the one thing i hate about fridays is that i don't have a heap to do, so i spend the day bumming, and trying to look like i am earning the money they are paying me.)
xoxoxo