I didn't want her to go out like this :(
Whoa, do I have a lot to tell you! Today has had the good the bad and the ugly. I don’t think I have a tear left to cry left either. Today at school was totally awesome. I had a lot to say about it but don’t really feel like it now. I want to get this out and don’t feel like it but here it goes. MY kitty pumpkin passed away. She hasn’t been good for a while and couldn’t keep any weight on. Today was the worst. I don’t think that she was really suffering but I was suffering by watching her. She was stumbling around and was barely walking. Then she just kept meowing that was what got to me the most. IT was like she was asking for my help and there was nothing that I could do for her. I prayed for God to take her, I wanted her to die so she didn’t have to suffer. My mother cannot handle death she couldn’t even handle looking a pumpkin. You would think that a grown woman would be able to deal with death. Death isn’t something that you are supposed to get use to though. I just like thinking of it that they will be better off then being here. MY mother and I were on 2 totally different pages. She thought by me saying that I wanted something done I was her to go somewhere so she called Noah's ark. I thought that she called Noah's ark because she didn’t want to see pumpkin die here. I regret taking her to Noah’s ark.
MY mother wouldn’t be emotionally capable to take her so she asked if amy took her that I would go along. I said sure, well she went to talk to amy and I went to get ready. I came down and mom told me to go out and get the cage. I went out and started to look for pumpkin because she wasn’t on the porch. Ray was in the neighbors’ driveway getting her. What the hell was he doing? I was getting the cat. Well as he was trying to get her in the cage she struggled and scratched him. HE came along. I was on the phone with Kristina. I didn’t want to talk to them and I needed something to keep me calm and everything, thanks :) She made noise and was trying to get out for a few minutes. She settled down as we were leaving Connellsville and she just got quiet. By the time that we got there she was gone but amy was already in the place trying to do something. I just wanted to take her home and burry her there. Well amy had to bring up that she scratched ray, it didn’t really brake the skin or anything. amy being the dumbass that she is thought that she may have had rabies. NO, she wasn’t aggressive or anything, no foam or anything, she has lost a lot of weight and mom thinks that she may have had kitty leukemia or something. Then ray said that it might have been a fight. No, there were no injuries. A fight wouldn’t have ripped down her system like that. They took my cat and they are going to send my poor dead cat away to be tested for something. It doesn’t matter now because whatever it was it killed her. I guess they were doing it as a precaution, but I would bet that it was nothing at all that would affect Ray. Now my cat will be mutilated because of those dumbasses.
I am mad. I was mad the whole way home and the only thing that amy said to me was when she asked if I were okay before we left. I was glad that she didn’t have to suffer anymore. When we got home I got out of the car and shut the door and came in the house. I walked past my mother and before I got to the deck door amy was talking to my mother. She was saying that she was sorry but she went before we got there. Then she was making all of these assumptions and saying that “lacey is probably mad at me and all of this stuff.” She has no clue why I was upset so she needs to shut her nasty face. I went in and went off on her.
ME: I am mad because my cat has to be mutilated and torn apart.
Whore: (she got lippy) well what was I suppose to do?
ME: maybe if ray wouldn’t have gone after pumpkin he wouldn’t have gotten scratched and she wouldn’t have to go through. I don’t think that she has rabies or anything. I wanted her here and now she is being mutilated. Then I couldn’t even get her out of the car and take her in the place. I have ever right to be mad and upset. You don’t even know why I was upset so leave it.
She may have said something else in there but I don’t care. I walked away and went out to sit with the beagle. I went back in when amy came out to cut the grass and my mom asked if I wanted to go for a drive. We drove out breakneck and came out at east end road. We went to the dairy queen and sat and talked for a while. She said that it would be cool if I have a conversation with amy and tell her that she should talk to me instead of assume things and treat me like an adult. I don’t think that is going to happen. I don’t like looking at her so why would I want to talk to her. I am still upset but the thing I like is that amy wont look at me or talk to me.
I do miss pumpkin. We have had our good days and the ones where we fought or I would throw her off of the deck, haha. I love it when she was a kitty but as she grew she didn’t want to be around people as much and became an independent feline. As she was coming to her end she was friendly again. I will miss her but it is apart of life. -Lacey
MY mother wouldn’t be emotionally capable to take her so she asked if amy took her that I would go along. I said sure, well she went to talk to amy and I went to get ready. I came down and mom told me to go out and get the cage. I went out and started to look for pumpkin because she wasn’t on the porch. Ray was in the neighbors’ driveway getting her. What the hell was he doing? I was getting the cat. Well as he was trying to get her in the cage she struggled and scratched him. HE came along. I was on the phone with Kristina. I didn’t want to talk to them and I needed something to keep me calm and everything, thanks :) She made noise and was trying to get out for a few minutes. She settled down as we were leaving Connellsville and she just got quiet. By the time that we got there she was gone but amy was already in the place trying to do something. I just wanted to take her home and burry her there. Well amy had to bring up that she scratched ray, it didn’t really brake the skin or anything. amy being the dumbass that she is thought that she may have had rabies. NO, she wasn’t aggressive or anything, no foam or anything, she has lost a lot of weight and mom thinks that she may have had kitty leukemia or something. Then ray said that it might have been a fight. No, there were no injuries. A fight wouldn’t have ripped down her system like that. They took my cat and they are going to send my poor dead cat away to be tested for something. It doesn’t matter now because whatever it was it killed her. I guess they were doing it as a precaution, but I would bet that it was nothing at all that would affect Ray. Now my cat will be mutilated because of those dumbasses.
I am mad. I was mad the whole way home and the only thing that amy said to me was when she asked if I were okay before we left. I was glad that she didn’t have to suffer anymore. When we got home I got out of the car and shut the door and came in the house. I walked past my mother and before I got to the deck door amy was talking to my mother. She was saying that she was sorry but she went before we got there. Then she was making all of these assumptions and saying that “lacey is probably mad at me and all of this stuff.” She has no clue why I was upset so she needs to shut her nasty face. I went in and went off on her.
ME: I am mad because my cat has to be mutilated and torn apart.
Whore: (she got lippy) well what was I suppose to do?
ME: maybe if ray wouldn’t have gone after pumpkin he wouldn’t have gotten scratched and she wouldn’t have to go through. I don’t think that she has rabies or anything. I wanted her here and now she is being mutilated. Then I couldn’t even get her out of the car and take her in the place. I have ever right to be mad and upset. You don’t even know why I was upset so leave it.
She may have said something else in there but I don’t care. I walked away and went out to sit with the beagle. I went back in when amy came out to cut the grass and my mom asked if I wanted to go for a drive. We drove out breakneck and came out at east end road. We went to the dairy queen and sat and talked for a while. She said that it would be cool if I have a conversation with amy and tell her that she should talk to me instead of assume things and treat me like an adult. I don’t think that is going to happen. I don’t like looking at her so why would I want to talk to her. I am still upset but the thing I like is that amy wont look at me or talk to me.
I do miss pumpkin. We have had our good days and the ones where we fought or I would throw her off of the deck, haha. I love it when she was a kitty but as she grew she didn’t want to be around people as much and became an independent feline. As she was coming to her end she was friendly again. I will miss her but it is apart of life. -Lacey