Jul 16, 2009 10:18
Tonight I am having dinner at my grandma's place. My grandfather passed away two months ago and she is trying to stay active. So she has decided that she wants to cook occasionally for my brother and I.
Now, when my grandmother first invited me and then a second time, she asked me if I wanted dinner alone or with my brother. And her reason was that we may be unconfortable. The reason for that is because my brother and I use to live together until he decided he wanted to live with his 18 year-old girlfriend. Anyway, the girlfriend and I do not have anything in common. But I would not say that I am uncomfortable around her. It's just that she is 10.5 years younger than I and what she is interested in I have outgrown. Yes, she is mature but she is still a kid. And that is not something I am, even if one of my customers thought I sounded like a 15 year old.
So now you are wondering why I brought this all up. Last night my brother invited me over for dinner because he hadn't seen me in a while. And he mentioned dinner at Gramma's. And I said I was going to be there. And they seemed very surprised. And not just surprised, but like not completely happy about it. I mean it is one thing to just not know about something and to not like something. It felt like more of the second.
That puts me in a deliemina. I'm not certain what I should do. Because now I am uncomfortable. Where before I was trying to keep a lot of extra work away from my gramma and because it doesn't really matter to me. Now I'm feeling like I'm going to be a third wheel. And that just put a bad thought in my mind. I don't really believe it but I know my brother tries to get more than he should and my grandmother is really good at doing that. Is that why he seemed less than thrilled that I was going to be there? After all my brother is moving at the end of the month (and the girl-child).
Can you tell I'm not thrilled about my brother's relationship? Ironcally it is in the other direction that my thoughts tend to run in. I know she can do better and she should be with someone her own age who is going through the same expericenes that she is. And for my brother he needs to start dating his own age before the mother stops believing he is 21.
That means tonight I can look forward to good food and uncomfortablity. At least I can look forward to the food.
Now don't get me wrong. My brother and I can get along just fine. We have a give and take relationship (and I'll admitt I take more than I should) but we have learned to get along. We did live together for almost two years and actually I would have been fine for another year or so. But I did not want to live with a kid. (And at the time I was 28, and just-celebrated-18-and-got-kicked-out was not someone I wanted to live with.) I am ten and a half years older, who do you think in the house would have been the parental figure.
Anyway, there are a lot of issues with that and those are niether here nor there. So now I am sitting all antsy for this evening. Though it will be good to see my grandma.