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The weekend was uninteresting. Some might call it disappointing. Went to Liz's house on Saturday night, nice girl though if I had my time again I'd probably stay at home and play a kickass game of clock patients. God some girls cannot let go of high school even though fuck.. we've been out of school for 2 fucking years. I hate those girls, I wish that their bullshit about who's put on weight and who has lost weight and who's going out with who crap crapidy crap would just evaporate. I was so ready to kick erin smith's arse for thinking that dawson was pregnant - I just hate people who are fake concerned and so i was ready to stab her in the face. God forbid anyone see her eat. Maybe I should just over feed her. She looks a lot like... that fetch chick out of mean girls - so much so that its scary. I've concluded that she IS the fetch chick out of mean girls.
Proceeded to go to the depot to be greeted by the fakest person ever. Thank god they've gone interstate and they're out of my life from now on.
There's the old saying that if you treat people how you want to be treated you'll be set. But I think if I don't like someone because they're as fake as press on nails - which they are. With their fake spirituality and 'lets all be friends' outlook on life - I can't be nice to people who aren't real and who are fucking annoying.
I have a short short temper right now. I don't know. I'm running out of patience for people, all kinds of people, my people, your people - myself. What I want and what I don't want have some how confused themselves and I don't really know what's right and what's wrong anymore.
My dad called me a hypocrite last night. That set me right off. I don't think I'm a hypocrite, but then again when can any hypocrite see their hypocrisy. I'm shitty that there are double standards in this house. I'm saddened that I don't think my parents know what I am all about. Although I don't really give them the chance, I just wish I could give people a letter that sets out everything - and I'd photocopy it to save everyone the trouble of bothering. It would be like a disclaimer - so I wouldn't be to blame if I piss you off or upset you or make you feel crappy.
Save everyone a lot of trouble. I'm over drama, I think its time to cut some dead wood out of my life and start again. But its tricky and messy and I don't know if I can do it without getting hurt in the process. I'm somewhat like a buddhist trying to avoid pain at any cost, except I don't think its holding onto material goods that is causing me my suffering. I think its holding onto ideals of what should be and what people should be like and these incredibly high standards are causing me to be constantly disappointed not only in other people but in myself for believing that they could actually be attainable.
Proceeded to go to the depot to be greeted by the fakest person ever. Thank god they've gone interstate and they're out of my life from now on.
There's the old saying that if you treat people how you want to be treated you'll be set. But I think if I don't like someone because they're as fake as press on nails - which they are. With their fake spirituality and 'lets all be friends' outlook on life - I can't be nice to people who aren't real and who are fucking annoying.
I have a short short temper right now. I don't know. I'm running out of patience for people, all kinds of people, my people, your people - myself. What I want and what I don't want have some how confused themselves and I don't really know what's right and what's wrong anymore.
My dad called me a hypocrite last night. That set me right off. I don't think I'm a hypocrite, but then again when can any hypocrite see their hypocrisy. I'm shitty that there are double standards in this house. I'm saddened that I don't think my parents know what I am all about. Although I don't really give them the chance, I just wish I could give people a letter that sets out everything - and I'd photocopy it to save everyone the trouble of bothering. It would be like a disclaimer - so I wouldn't be to blame if I piss you off or upset you or make you feel crappy.
Save everyone a lot of trouble. I'm over drama, I think its time to cut some dead wood out of my life and start again. But its tricky and messy and I don't know if I can do it without getting hurt in the process. I'm somewhat like a buddhist trying to avoid pain at any cost, except I don't think its holding onto material goods that is causing me my suffering. I think its holding onto ideals of what should be and what people should be like and these incredibly high standards are causing me to be constantly disappointed not only in other people but in myself for believing that they could actually be attainable.