I Feel Like My Life Is A Soap Opera...
Thats right, I feel like my life is a soap opera. So much drama going on here at school, at home, with me personally. Blah! Im so confused sometimes. I feel like I am a zombie or just dazed sometimes. All this stuff is just in my head and i constantly think about it and block out what is really going on around me. Right now my brother is in the hospital, im very upset with my "friend" Shawna who stated 2 me and kell we are the reason y she is leaving school, school is just a drama in itself and I have this someone on my mind. Thats right, all that stuff going through my head at once! This weekend on Saturday I went out and i got trashed and I'll be honest with you, IT WAS THE BEST FEELING...EVER! I think I really needed 2 do that. I was worse on Saturday night than on my 21st. I had a hell of alot of vodka and rum. On the way home Kelly informed me I ran into a few bushes. All i remember when I came home was i layed on the futon, the room was spinning then next thing I know I was puking in the bahtroom. Yep that was my Saturday night, haha!
Now 4 this someone thats on my mind...I really like this guy. He's nice, sweet, great to talk to. We just talk 2 each other about what is going on in our lives and just anything and I really enjoy that. I enjoy this persons company a lot. People say they havent seen me this happy in quite sometime..and I really think they are right, they also say I have much more confidence in myself and once again I think they are right. I am really hoping something will happen. I think it would be great! But if not thats ok 2...I gained a great friend. This person probaby knows who they are. Im 2 chicken 2 make the first move. So if u feel the same by chance, give me a sign (one that I can pick up on, im dumb and blind) or let me know. Im chicken because im afraid of rejection(happend 1 to many times 4 me) Oh yeah and Im sorry the eagles lost!(hint)And if i scared you, im sorry. Just pretend I never wrote this...please dont run, still be my friend! I'll understand! And if im annoying just tell me 2 back off!
"Meeting u was fate,
Becoming your frined was a choice,
But falling 4 u was out of my control..."
Now 4 this someone thats on my mind...I really like this guy. He's nice, sweet, great to talk to. We just talk 2 each other about what is going on in our lives and just anything and I really enjoy that. I enjoy this persons company a lot. People say they havent seen me this happy in quite sometime..and I really think they are right, they also say I have much more confidence in myself and once again I think they are right. I am really hoping something will happen. I think it would be great! But if not thats ok 2...I gained a great friend. This person probaby knows who they are. Im 2 chicken 2 make the first move. So if u feel the same by chance, give me a sign (one that I can pick up on, im dumb and blind) or let me know. Im chicken because im afraid of rejection(happend 1 to many times 4 me) Oh yeah and Im sorry the eagles lost!(hint)And if i scared you, im sorry. Just pretend I never wrote this...please dont run, still be my friend! I'll understand! And if im annoying just tell me 2 back off!
"Meeting u was fate,
Becoming your frined was a choice,
But falling 4 u was out of my control..."