A cold & an explanation of some weekend AWKWARDNESS
Ugggh. I hate this week cause I have a cold. I am one of those people who just totally can't deal with being sick. It puts me in a bad mood, I complain, complain, complain, and pretty much just adopt a "WHY ME" attitude for the duration. Whoever is around me must get sick of me complaining even though I love to be taken care of while I am sick. Anyway, whether it goes away or not I am happy to be going home to see my Mommy and Eliot this weekend cause they will make me feel better for sure.
This past weekend was....interesting. Saturday night we went out for Dan's birthday. I, however, got pretty much appointed as the designated driver which is total crap if you ask me. I am sure it is just because Michelle was the DD for Eliot's birthday, but still. Generally people volunteer to be the DD, you don't ask them in a way which pretty much doesn't leave a way for them to say no. Plus, other people shouldn't be the deciders of whether or not I get to drink in a night. Eliot felt bad and would have done it, but I decided just to suck it up and have fun even if I didn't drink.
We started the night off at Charlie's, which is pretty much my fave bar based on the fact that it doesn't get so crowded that you can't even move. It's just chill, wicked good. Well, as some of the boys were playing pool and the girls were basically watching, I turned around and saw "Last Semester Mike" (who is actually now like "Last semster x 5 Mike", holy crap, time flies) walk in. Now that's totally fine but for some reason when past and present things of my life collide it makes me feel weird. Annnnnd, since I am shy little stace, it made me extremely nervous to the point that I was actually physically shaking and had to tell people I was cold so they wouldn't know the real reason. I don't know why this happened but I guess it was just because I really didn't know how to act...especially since he actually used to call me all the time just last semester. (Thsi all would have been much easier if I was drunk, but noooo I had to DD). I didn't know if I should tell Eliot that he was there. Or go talk to him. Or pretend I didn't see him completely. I just didn't know what to dooo. So I told Eliot that if he wanted to see what Mike looked like to look at the door. He told me to go talk to him, but I could tell he was sizing him up & keeping his eye on me. Anyway, so I decided just to keep my back towards him until I decided. Then he disappeared and I was like phewwww. I had to go to the bathroom so I went, on the way I spotted him at a table and averted my eyes. But then, OF COURSE, on the way out of the bathroom he was walking in and we came face to face and he was like "STACCCEEE." I was much calmer by then and we hugged and talked for awhile. I was like, "wow, you still live here" and he was like, "well, I don't live HERRRE, but I live in Amherst" and I was like "Yeaaah, well I figured you didn't live in Charlie's." Then he was like going "Yeah well I dunno, we should hang out sometime" and then suddenly I felt a hand pulling at my hand behind me and it was Eliot, and I was like, "Ahh, good to see ya gotta go!" And then I left and went to other bars.
On the way Eliot wanted to know all about what we talked about and told me that he wanted to beat Mike up. I told him not to be mean because Mike is nice and that I looove Eliot more than anything in life. Then he told me that he wouldn't really do it but that it is normal for boyfriend's to want to beat up their girlfriend's ex-boyfriends and wanted to know if I thought he could take him even though Mike has some height on him. I told him he definitely could. It made me feel good in a way that Eliot wanted to beat him up, even though that that is silly. It's kinda like him showing his love in action, even though we both knew he wouldn't beat him up and I would never want him to.
Anyway. Later in the night my cell phone, which is actually now my mother's, and so therefore is in Gloucester not Amherst rang. Are you with me? Haha, that was confusing, but basically my mom's cell phone rang at 2:30 in the morning and it was Mike, cause it used to be my cell phone number, does that make sense? But anyway, thats just a little more awkward, boys are nutzo, and I am just glad that 1. My Mom didn't hear the phone ring and 2. The cell phone number is no longer mine. Cause that's just even moreeee awkward.
But yeah, the whole situation just was like, uncomfortable and strange. Also though, it made me think of how different I am since the whole Mike thing happened and it kind of makes me laugh. Cause it was only like two years ago but I am like so ridiculously different and so many things have happened to me since that it is just like weird. I don't know. Just the way things go in your life sometimes, I can't help but laugh.
Also, at the end of the night no one(!!) besides Eliot and I drove home in my designated driver car if we knew thatttt was gonna happen we coulda walked home.
JEESH!
This past weekend was....interesting. Saturday night we went out for Dan's birthday. I, however, got pretty much appointed as the designated driver which is total crap if you ask me. I am sure it is just because Michelle was the DD for Eliot's birthday, but still. Generally people volunteer to be the DD, you don't ask them in a way which pretty much doesn't leave a way for them to say no. Plus, other people shouldn't be the deciders of whether or not I get to drink in a night. Eliot felt bad and would have done it, but I decided just to suck it up and have fun even if I didn't drink.
We started the night off at Charlie's, which is pretty much my fave bar based on the fact that it doesn't get so crowded that you can't even move. It's just chill, wicked good. Well, as some of the boys were playing pool and the girls were basically watching, I turned around and saw "Last Semester Mike" (who is actually now like "Last semster x 5 Mike", holy crap, time flies) walk in. Now that's totally fine but for some reason when past and present things of my life collide it makes me feel weird. Annnnnd, since I am shy little stace, it made me extremely nervous to the point that I was actually physically shaking and had to tell people I was cold so they wouldn't know the real reason. I don't know why this happened but I guess it was just because I really didn't know how to act...especially since he actually used to call me all the time just last semester. (Thsi all would have been much easier if I was drunk, but noooo I had to DD). I didn't know if I should tell Eliot that he was there. Or go talk to him. Or pretend I didn't see him completely. I just didn't know what to dooo. So I told Eliot that if he wanted to see what Mike looked like to look at the door. He told me to go talk to him, but I could tell he was sizing him up & keeping his eye on me. Anyway, so I decided just to keep my back towards him until I decided. Then he disappeared and I was like phewwww. I had to go to the bathroom so I went, on the way I spotted him at a table and averted my eyes. But then, OF COURSE, on the way out of the bathroom he was walking in and we came face to face and he was like "STACCCEEE." I was much calmer by then and we hugged and talked for awhile. I was like, "wow, you still live here" and he was like, "well, I don't live HERRRE, but I live in Amherst" and I was like "Yeaaah, well I figured you didn't live in Charlie's." Then he was like going "Yeah well I dunno, we should hang out sometime" and then suddenly I felt a hand pulling at my hand behind me and it was Eliot, and I was like, "Ahh, good to see ya gotta go!" And then I left and went to other bars.
On the way Eliot wanted to know all about what we talked about and told me that he wanted to beat Mike up. I told him not to be mean because Mike is nice and that I looove Eliot more than anything in life. Then he told me that he wouldn't really do it but that it is normal for boyfriend's to want to beat up their girlfriend's ex-boyfriends and wanted to know if I thought he could take him even though Mike has some height on him. I told him he definitely could. It made me feel good in a way that Eliot wanted to beat him up, even though that that is silly. It's kinda like him showing his love in action, even though we both knew he wouldn't beat him up and I would never want him to.
Anyway. Later in the night my cell phone, which is actually now my mother's, and so therefore is in Gloucester not Amherst rang. Are you with me? Haha, that was confusing, but basically my mom's cell phone rang at 2:30 in the morning and it was Mike, cause it used to be my cell phone number, does that make sense? But anyway, thats just a little more awkward, boys are nutzo, and I am just glad that 1. My Mom didn't hear the phone ring and 2. The cell phone number is no longer mine. Cause that's just even moreeee awkward.
But yeah, the whole situation just was like, uncomfortable and strange. Also though, it made me think of how different I am since the whole Mike thing happened and it kind of makes me laugh. Cause it was only like two years ago but I am like so ridiculously different and so many things have happened to me since that it is just like weird. I don't know. Just the way things go in your life sometimes, I can't help but laugh.
Also, at the end of the night no one(!!) besides Eliot and I drove home in my designated driver car if we knew thatttt was gonna happen we coulda walked home.
JEESH!