my emotions have a mind of their own

[stacemiester]

i spent the night alone. steve had to take a raincheck. boo. we shall have lunch tomorrow. so i sit and watch tv in my makeup while reading blender with miss spears on the cover. i fell in love with a boy on the real world san diego. im as ready for class tomorrow as i'll ever be. i feel random as you can witness in my writing. i am unsure of what i want... someone in my bed only so i can push them out? a set plan so i know what im living for? a reason to smile? something to get me through the day? something to give me butteflies. a better understanding of how my own head works?
maybe all of the above. i will lay in bed and hope that sleep comes easily...

oxox