open your eyes boy/ i think we are safe
i don't know where to start... roadtrippin with my favorite allies was totally and utteraly awesome. we threw a dance party which led to special k and myself dancing on countertops and posing for some not so shy photos, all in good fun. tons of laughs and many memories made with my dear friends as always. i came home about 2pm yesterday and as i had promised the boy-daniel- i called him. he cleared his night so everyone else could run the club and we could hang out.
i met him at his house and it was rad from the start. we spent the evening watching just married and then we made sandwiches together. he was sooo kind and sincere. we talked about out lives and such things as that. he did everything he could to make me feel comfy and i felt very safe with him. we couldn't get over the fact that we were actaully together at his house...he said that he kept picturing my pretty face at the club.. and now it was it his home. haha. well anyways we got a little more touchy feely as the night went on.. as we become more smitten with eachother. he gave me the greatest massage ever
and then i can't really say how it happened but i'm positive that it was meant to be... we become completely intense. his touch and kisses made my heart ache and i knew right then and there that something big was going on. he said that he wanted to enjoy me and caressed my face with his hands in the sweetest ways and gave me many kisses on my forhead. we just layed together and just exsisted in the moment while lisening to the most perfect and fittig music- patty griffin, yeah yeah yeahs, lucy woodward. we talked about out future and if we could actaully do this long distance since we still are in the getting to know eachother phase. i think its too late to even question if its a possibility. from the way he kissed me to the fact that he even mentioned the world "future" and me in it with him means that its already bigger than i can control.
he made me call as soon as i got home. as i drove back i kept the window down and screamed patty griffin lyrics at the top of my lungs. i almost cry when i try to remember the way he felt and the way his skin was so beautiful and blemish free. i think was body was made for him in a sense. and i could stop myself now before it gets hard or messy but if i were to do that then i wouldn't be living.
and he makes me feel alive.
im scared because i only felt this way once before and that with justin of forever and forever ago. i just met this boy and already something is happening. i need to take this risk. even if i only have him temporarily... and this feeling fades or breaks me then it was worth it...
he is worth it..
i am worth it..
i met him at his house and it was rad from the start. we spent the evening watching just married and then we made sandwiches together. he was sooo kind and sincere. we talked about out lives and such things as that. he did everything he could to make me feel comfy and i felt very safe with him. we couldn't get over the fact that we were actaully together at his house...he said that he kept picturing my pretty face at the club.. and now it was it his home. haha. well anyways we got a little more touchy feely as the night went on.. as we become more smitten with eachother. he gave me the greatest massage ever
and then i can't really say how it happened but i'm positive that it was meant to be... we become completely intense. his touch and kisses made my heart ache and i knew right then and there that something big was going on. he said that he wanted to enjoy me and caressed my face with his hands in the sweetest ways and gave me many kisses on my forhead. we just layed together and just exsisted in the moment while lisening to the most perfect and fittig music- patty griffin, yeah yeah yeahs, lucy woodward. we talked about out future and if we could actaully do this long distance since we still are in the getting to know eachother phase. i think its too late to even question if its a possibility. from the way he kissed me to the fact that he even mentioned the world "future" and me in it with him means that its already bigger than i can control.
he made me call as soon as i got home. as i drove back i kept the window down and screamed patty griffin lyrics at the top of my lungs. i almost cry when i try to remember the way he felt and the way his skin was so beautiful and blemish free. i think was body was made for him in a sense. and i could stop myself now before it gets hard or messy but if i were to do that then i wouldn't be living.
and he makes me feel alive.
im scared because i only felt this way once before and that with justin of forever and forever ago. i just met this boy and already something is happening. i need to take this risk. even if i only have him temporarily... and this feeling fades or breaks me then it was worth it...
he is worth it..
i am worth it..