i guess we're both fuck-ups. (but who isn't?) I was referring to myself. that when i think about you, i just think about how fucked up that relationship was, just based on timing and other people and how i handled it (which is poorly).
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1. i don't hate you. 2. bizarre irish food? lol. beauty marks. scarves? 3. to starbucks! 4. haha. geez. danke. 5. i remember you kissing tommy. geez that was funny. the all-out frappy war was HILARIOUS. wow. i definitely remember that. i was sore for like a week. geezus. that was great. 6. mad, angry, bitter, confused. it was like i prided myself on being loyal, and i was being nothing but disloyal. and it wasn't fair to you. or me. or anyone else involved. & i know people think i threw you away, and i guess reflecting on it, i did. but i didn't want to hear that you loved me. it scared/annoyed me. but you also weren't afraid to fight with me. i think i appreciate that a LOT more now than i did then. you made me think & question things. i was a better person for it, i just couldn't understand that at the time. i didn't know what was going on within me at that time in my life.
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1. i don't hate you.
2. bizarre irish food? lol. beauty marks. scarves?
3. to starbucks!
4. haha. geez. danke.
5. i remember you kissing tommy. geez that was funny. the all-out frappy war was HILARIOUS. wow. i definitely remember that. i was sore for like a week. geezus. that was great.
6. mad, angry, bitter, confused.
it was like i prided myself on being loyal, and i was being nothing but disloyal. and it wasn't fair to you. or me. or anyone else involved.
& i know people think i threw you away, and i guess reflecting on it, i did.
but i didn't want to hear that you loved me.
it scared/annoyed me.
but you also weren't afraid to fight with me. i think i appreciate that a LOT more now than i did then.
you made me think & question things.
i was a better person for it, i just couldn't understand that at the time.
i didn't know what was going on within me at that time in my life.
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