I cried and love said no....
Eh... Today was better. I still cannot go 2 minutes without thinking about Cade. I feel sorry for him because of how his life has turned out, and I'd do anything to help him, but he's too mentally fucking abusive for my taste. I don't love him, I wasn't even close to loving him, but I do care about him and his well-being and the well-being of everyone around him. He can be a really sweet, caring guy, he just likes to drink to forget things (he had a horrible childhood). He thinks he so much more mature than I am. I think he's insecure about himself so he makes everyone else seem inferior. I still can't get up the courage to call him. I had the opportunity, I'm just terrified that He'll be drunk and go off on me AGAIN. I don't even want my money back, I could care less. I don't want our relationship to be on such bad terms... really. I hate for people to hate me. Especially people I've known for a long ass time.
Emma is spending the night. We gotta get up early to take her home and go to Marilynn's brother's court hearing at 9. My back hurts... I'm just damn tired. We walked to the end of the road here to Georgetown rd.... I think it was 1 1/2 or 2 miles both ways. It felt nice...... anyway, I gotta go to bed. Goodnight, loves.
Emma is spending the night. We gotta get up early to take her home and go to Marilynn's brother's court hearing at 9. My back hurts... I'm just damn tired. We walked to the end of the road here to Georgetown rd.... I think it was 1 1/2 or 2 miles both ways. It felt nice...... anyway, I gotta go to bed. Goodnight, loves.