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I never post anything on here! So I'm posting...wahoo.
So life has been pretty stressfull but graduation is in sight and I am so excited to start something new!
I keep telling people that I have a plan, but really I don't. I mean, I have speech coaching plans and possible college plans, but the truth is I haven't applied anywhere, and don't have the money to do what I want.
I've been wondering why I haven't had the ambition to do something about that and I think it is because I really need to move. If I stay, it will be a comfort thing. I think I just need to get out there, in that big world , and not know anyone or anything, and just survive.
I've been trying to find myself for so long, and I hate who I am alot of the time and I think it's because I;m so comfortable here. I just need something new and something far far away from alot of the not so cool people ((ahem))shitty boys((ahem)) just to realize some things, and to appreciate some things.
i just bought plane tickets to NY for July 15-22nd. I'm going alone. I don't know where I'm going to stay. All I know is I am attending a work shop, I get to meet Jason Robert Brown, and a bunch of other broadway people...and on July 21st I have an audition for Bernard Telsey (the people who cast Hairspray)
If I get casted...then I move out there. If I don't get casted, I'm still going to audition for AMDA and if I make AMDA I'll consider it...if not...I'll go where the wind takes me.
I think the only thing that will hold me back are the people that I just can't let go to. The people who I love and respect. And the speech community. People like, Alyssa, RJ, Brittany, Luke, Kayla, and all my other theatre friends. But if you love me, then you know just as well as I do that I'm not a college person, and that I'm doing some pretty unhealthy things here so maybe it's time to get out.
I don't know. But I'm excited!