its been awhile.
wow. its been awhile since i've writen a post. This term has slowly torn me to pieces. The boys above have kept me sane and alive. Its chad on the left, John, and erich. I love these boys. Chad has been there for me through all the shit that has been thrown at me this term. I just met john and Erich this term and am quickly becoming close with John and Erich. Over the past few weeks i've developed a likeing to john. Hes probably the sweetest kid right up there next to chad. John is more my type. Hes a little more relaxed in the religious department. hes starting his own company. he golfs. hes sweet. hes successful, funny, genuine, a good cook and an all around amazing guy.
its weird being around chad who has this goal of being married by the time hes 24 has really started me thinking about marriage. I have never been in a rush to get married but its been 3 years now i've been in college and have had one boyfriend. now this boyfriend was a douche bag and was 7 years older than me... so that doesn't really count. There has always been qualities in chad that i love i see him being a great husband to whomever he marries. Sometimes i've been a little reluctant with him and his girlfriends because deep down i could see us getting married. we basically are already. i basically live at his house. we cook meals for eachother. we go out together go to the library (which is where we currently are together.) but now that i've been hanging out with john i see myself with someone like him. I finally feel like i found my good group of friend in college that is outside of the sorority. I have friends but i feel like when my world falls apart as it has done this term they are the ones i turn to. Over spring break i'm going to a wedding with chad his best friend from high school is getting married. thats so weird to me. but its something i'm getting used too. I know you have so much time, but at the same time being married young would be fun.
Its weird for the first time (granted we aren't even dating which may seem creepy) but finally seeing all the qualities in one guy that you want to marry....