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They say that it never hurts as much after the first time, and I suppose there's an element of truth in that, but they also say that every time you get hurt the barriers go up a little bit higher, and you end up being hard and cynical, and not giving anything to anyone.
I wish that I could be hard and cynical. That I could take things slowly, not give too much of myself, because I'd be so frightened of getting hurt that there wouldn't be any other way. But no. Every time I meet someone I dive in headfirst, showering them with love and attention, and hoping that this time they're going to turn out to be different.
I need to be hard and cynical. I need to stop being so damn optimistic that all guy are not the same. I need to become Pessimistic Pasiuk. Ha.
I wish that I could be hard and cynical. That I could take things slowly, not give too much of myself, because I'd be so frightened of getting hurt that there wouldn't be any other way. But no. Every time I meet someone I dive in headfirst, showering them with love and attention, and hoping that this time they're going to turn out to be different.
I need to be hard and cynical. I need to stop being so damn optimistic that all guy are not the same. I need to become Pessimistic Pasiuk. Ha.