"It's a sweet little message now, but I intend to woo you with chocolates and sex appeal next."
I really have no business updating. Usually when things like this happen I feel better when I begin the entry, but after going over all of the details and thinking about the situation yet again, I feel even worse that I did before. That isn't going to happen this time. For some reason this is different...I'm not as angry or hurt as I thought I would be.
Last night was weird. As the pattern seems to go, my parents leave me home alone and I end up alone and, for some strange reason, miserable. This time started to play out like that.
I start the day really angry and hurt.
Go to the Salvs with mah guurl Nico and then to Mickey’s where we discuss and come to a conclusion…sort of.
I come home feeling very thankful to have Nicole and then start feeling crappy about the rest of my night.
My Fins called, a plan was made and it was basically a waiting time...
I decided to get off my butt and go to the Kelley's.
Called Caitlin and started walking there. She met me outside and we sat on the floor and talked about things.
Talked to Alexandra, Aly, Mark, Jenny, and Bri. Cute times.
Walk upstairs and see the missed call from mfinney and call back.
I get an, "I miss you, boo" and then realize I had been left on the main floor of the Kelley's house while the other people I walked up with had gone upstairs to Mark's room.
Feeling even crappier than this afternoon, I walk home crying.
I stop and laugh at myself for being retarded and then call mfin back in an attempt to make a daring escape to Sterling...
My plan was foiled by a bad movie.
I feel worse x 98239048 and run the rest of the way home.
Strip and get into the most trashy, comfortable clothes I own and made my way over to Jewel with Mom's credit card.
I buy milk and junk food...then start on my way to Blockbuster.
The phone rings, I pray it's someone and not just my mom, it's Caitlin.
I turn around and pick Caitlin up at my house where she was wait..
We swap stories and cry for a little bit, then go into Blockbuster and pick out movies.
We came back and watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle and completely forget about everything that was bothering us about that night.
It was definitely hilarious x 92384
We discuss more things, she leaves, I call Nico
I watched more tv and then realized that I would hate to wake up to a messy house so I clean
and clean and clean and clean and clean.
The house looks great and I go to bed feeling amazing.
I wake up today feeling a bit hurt, but still good.
It finally doesn't bother me. I've come to accept that there is no changing some people, and I shouldn't dwell on it. I have other friends. I feel better.
I get my act score back this week. I'm nervous. I am scared for Moline's homecoming, but if I got through Prom my sophomore year with Jake, I can get through anything. I'm excited for homecoming. Brielle and Alexandra have been added to our homecoming group, and we decided at fourstar that we would have Verucci's (I think) cater to my house and just eat here. I'm excited, but it hasn't been discussed with everyone else yet. I'm excited.
There. I was able to talk about the situation without venting or getting upset.
I just watched the Life Aquatic and it was just ok. Don't Judge
Last night was weird. As the pattern seems to go, my parents leave me home alone and I end up alone and, for some strange reason, miserable. This time started to play out like that.
I start the day really angry and hurt.
Go to the Salvs with mah guurl Nico and then to Mickey’s where we discuss and come to a conclusion…sort of.
I come home feeling very thankful to have Nicole and then start feeling crappy about the rest of my night.
My Fins called, a plan was made and it was basically a waiting time...
I decided to get off my butt and go to the Kelley's.
Called Caitlin and started walking there. She met me outside and we sat on the floor and talked about things.
Talked to Alexandra, Aly, Mark, Jenny, and Bri. Cute times.
Walk upstairs and see the missed call from mfinney and call back.
I get an, "I miss you, boo" and then realize I had been left on the main floor of the Kelley's house while the other people I walked up with had gone upstairs to Mark's room.
Feeling even crappier than this afternoon, I walk home crying.
I stop and laugh at myself for being retarded and then call mfin back in an attempt to make a daring escape to Sterling...
My plan was foiled by a bad movie.
I feel worse x 98239048 and run the rest of the way home.
Strip and get into the most trashy, comfortable clothes I own and made my way over to Jewel with Mom's credit card.
I buy milk and junk food...then start on my way to Blockbuster.
The phone rings, I pray it's someone and not just my mom, it's Caitlin.
I turn around and pick Caitlin up at my house where she was wait..
We swap stories and cry for a little bit, then go into Blockbuster and pick out movies.
We came back and watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle and completely forget about everything that was bothering us about that night.
It was definitely hilarious x 92384
We discuss more things, she leaves, I call Nico
I watched more tv and then realized that I would hate to wake up to a messy house so I clean
and clean and clean and clean and clean.
The house looks great and I go to bed feeling amazing.
I wake up today feeling a bit hurt, but still good.
It finally doesn't bother me. I've come to accept that there is no changing some people, and I shouldn't dwell on it. I have other friends. I feel better.
I get my act score back this week. I'm nervous. I am scared for Moline's homecoming, but if I got through Prom my sophomore year with Jake, I can get through anything. I'm excited for homecoming. Brielle and Alexandra have been added to our homecoming group, and we decided at fourstar that we would have Verucci's (I think) cater to my house and just eat here. I'm excited, but it hasn't been discussed with everyone else yet. I'm excited.
There. I was able to talk about the situation without venting or getting upset.
I just watched the Life Aquatic and it was just ok. Don't Judge