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tonight's been bad...i guess the big thing was me coming home drunk and somehow she slipping and telling me what my hidden heritage is. i guess it hurts because that was the only reason i had to meet my father. to ask him what i was....where im from. but i dont have that now. i dont know why but it hurts a bit. i guess maybe i just wanted to meet him, and this was my only reason to do it. or maybe im just drunk. i dont know...and i dont care....im hald dutch and half british.