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This Sunday will mark my 5-month single anniversary. I probably won't really do anything, but I think on my 6-month single anniversary I'm going to do something. It will also be marking that I've been broken up with Tyler for over a year, which I think is pretty awesome... I feel like superwoman by now. I am strong, independent, and fabulous. I have a great job, and I'm hella cool. The guys are lined up. I just don't think any of them are good enough. And I like being single bc I hate drama. And i'm uuber picky. I don't want to fall into a trap like I did with Tyler. But I won't. I'm done being naiive.
Poor Brad. I missed his companionship so I started running with him on a regular basis. That turned into twice a week, so I finally brought up the whole "do you still have feelings for me?" question. Once I heard him out and realised the magnitude of his misery, I realised that I was just prolonging it by keeping him around.
I'm not ready to be with him, and there's no point in leading him on making him think that I am. Man he really is a great guy, though. But he'll find himself a great little Christian girl to make him happy. It just won't be me. And I'm sick of feeling guilty about breaking up with him. There's no logical reason for me to feel that way, it's just manifested in my being. I want to bring nothing but joy to other people, and when I do just the opposite, it makes me sick.
Speaking of being sick-I don't vomit anymore. Not since May. Which is nice...
Holy cow. I just realised that my 6th-mo singlesville falls on Thanksgiving break, and I'm off work. I should totally go on vacation--my fam doesnt celebrate Thanksgiving, really. Maybe I should get Zach (who just recently became single) and make him skip Thanksgiving and go to Cali with me or something... lol
txting him right now!
Poor Brad. I missed his companionship so I started running with him on a regular basis. That turned into twice a week, so I finally brought up the whole "do you still have feelings for me?" question. Once I heard him out and realised the magnitude of his misery, I realised that I was just prolonging it by keeping him around.
I'm not ready to be with him, and there's no point in leading him on making him think that I am. Man he really is a great guy, though. But he'll find himself a great little Christian girl to make him happy. It just won't be me. And I'm sick of feeling guilty about breaking up with him. There's no logical reason for me to feel that way, it's just manifested in my being. I want to bring nothing but joy to other people, and when I do just the opposite, it makes me sick.
Speaking of being sick-I don't vomit anymore. Not since May. Which is nice...
Holy cow. I just realised that my 6th-mo singlesville falls on Thanksgiving break, and I'm off work. I should totally go on vacation--my fam doesnt celebrate Thanksgiving, really. Maybe I should get Zach (who just recently became single) and make him skip Thanksgiving and go to Cali with me or something... lol
txting him right now!