I'm wary of eyes upon my scars
This is the first time I've broken weak in awhile.
My life's been a tumultuous roller-coaster for the past month. I'm surprised I've really made it through it with what I have.
So let's see. I've moved out of my house. Going to Washington cost me my security. I've been doing fine though, and haven't fallen into debt or any serious situation financially.
Kara and I have been doing amazing, actually. Closer everyday. I keep thinking a future with us together in it is more and more of a reality..and it frightens me a bit, it really does.
Tedd and I skateboard every weekend, every other night now. It's pretty awesome. We're both rawkin' at it, and it's a great stress release. Tedd's been talking about moving to Colorado once I head off to Washington. Though, he wants to go sooner, and has an offer to work at a broadcasting company in Denver. I hope he can get where he wants to go. I know how it is..
I guess the only problem I really have is my own mental instabilities. My stress has overdeveloped OCD compounded with my normal prescriptions. I try to hide it very much, but I know that I repeat actions over and over until the repetitive motion becomes correct in my mind. I was so upset last night, I couldn't stop washing my hands. I'm not even germaphobic. I just couldn't stop washing my god-damn hands. It angered and frightened me beyond belief.
Everyone has their own burdens. Their own crosses to bear. I guess in the end it's how we each deal with these that makes us who we are, our strengths and weaknesses.
-Jake Leonardo
My life's been a tumultuous roller-coaster for the past month. I'm surprised I've really made it through it with what I have.
So let's see. I've moved out of my house. Going to Washington cost me my security. I've been doing fine though, and haven't fallen into debt or any serious situation financially.
Kara and I have been doing amazing, actually. Closer everyday. I keep thinking a future with us together in it is more and more of a reality..and it frightens me a bit, it really does.
Tedd and I skateboard every weekend, every other night now. It's pretty awesome. We're both rawkin' at it, and it's a great stress release. Tedd's been talking about moving to Colorado once I head off to Washington. Though, he wants to go sooner, and has an offer to work at a broadcasting company in Denver. I hope he can get where he wants to go. I know how it is..
I guess the only problem I really have is my own mental instabilities. My stress has overdeveloped OCD compounded with my normal prescriptions. I try to hide it very much, but I know that I repeat actions over and over until the repetitive motion becomes correct in my mind. I was so upset last night, I couldn't stop washing my hands. I'm not even germaphobic. I just couldn't stop washing my god-damn hands. It angered and frightened me beyond belief.
Everyone has their own burdens. Their own crosses to bear. I guess in the end it's how we each deal with these that makes us who we are, our strengths and weaknesses.
-Jake Leonardo